They check your wrists
But never your sides
They'll believe all the smiles
*Concealing the thousands of lies

Because congratulations
It ******* worked.
You've belittled me down to nothing.
I don't even know my own worth.

Someone just wake me up from this nightmare

Roll it up
Breathe it in
Let the hot air warm me to the skin
Take a puff
Hold it in
Feel the numbness start to sink it.
Light it up
Feel the glass on my skin
Finally this is where I feel okay again.

I don't think it's normal for a 16 year old to wonder about these things.
*What would be the quickest way to rid the pain?
What would I have to do to **** the demons that drive me insane?
Would anyone notice if I was no longer around?
Would anyone care if I were six feet
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I know how the saying goes
Fall down seven times
Stand up eight
But I've come to the point where getting back up,
Isn't worth all this heartache

And so starts another day.
Here we go again.
The bullying, the abuse, the lies that never end.
Fighting my demons as I walk around.
So many people stomping me to the ground.
Here goes another day of trying to stay strong.
Fighting back tears, making the most of things that will go wrong.
Here goes another day forcing a smile.
Fighting my demons I've been fighting for a while