Make it hard to fall asleep because when I close my eyes
I remember
That night last week.
I remember it like it was yesterday.
I remember the way you looked at me.
I remember the way you said my name.
I can still feel the hot prickles of your skin against mine.
I remember the taste of your kiss upon my...
              Lips
                  
                   Neck

                          Hips....

It wasn't supposed to mean anything...

    **So why do I suddenly still care so much

Things change and people do to.
It just ***** when the ones changing are the ones you never though would leave you.

Sometimes we're lucky enough in life to meet someone special.
To make a friend that is unlike anyone else.
This person will alter your life, whether they realize they're doing it or not.
This friend will make things different.
Make things better.
They'll make the pain melt away.
They'll force all your worries away.
They'll make you laugh and smile in ways you never have before.
And it's the simple things really.
Singing obnoxiously in the car.
Saying hi in the hallways.
Giving you hugs when you're down.
Ahh yes those hugs, those are the best.
The hugs that are so tight they press all the broken pieces back together.
Those are my favorite.
You see, people that can change your life this tremendously, these are people worth keeping around.
These people you should never let go.
These friends, are friends forever.

And once again her so called friend,
will leave her to go off with yet another guy.
And once again she'll be alone at lunch,
sitting in the bathroom while she cries.

There's many different reasons I've herd for why a person cries by them self.
No one can know we are hurting.
No one can see our pain.
We don't want anyone to know that we are weak.
We don't want to be judged.
And maybe also, because no one looks cute when they cry.

When you've lost everything you love
And everything that matters
Nothing else really matters to you anymore.
Because what else is there to lose?

So I guess it's true.
Everything is true.
You don't ever stop loving the first person you fell in love with.
You just deal with not having them in your life.
You learn new ways to go throughout your day.
You reconstruct your life.
It's almost as if you're building an entirely new life.
You no longer have to take another person into consideration when making plans.
And as freeing as that may be to some, to others it's as painful as being stabbed with a knife.
It's as if a part of you is empty.
The nights are suddenly longer and lonelier when you don't have the sound of his heartbeat lulling you to sleep.
The days are lonely too.
No sweet texts to brighten your day and make you smile.
No more daydreaming in class and drawing his name in hearts all over your notebook.
Losing your first love causes you to have to reconstruct routines.
It causes you to always wonder what more could have been.
But most of all, it reminds you that nothing last forever... And there is nothing we can do about it.