I deal with your sadness whenever you need me to
I know when you're upset because it's a never ending cycle
Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to be there for you and help
But when you're going back to something toxic
Coming to me bearing an excuse of "oh we were just messing around" with tears expressed with messages
I will tell you to leave
I will tell you to break it off
I won't sit back and tell you what you want to hear anymore
It's not just tiring for you, but for those around you who express their opinion when you ask, but get nothing but scorn from you in return

i breathed him in
like a drag off of
one of his cigarettes,
long
slow and
cool.
i held him in
before exhaling
and promised
this time would be
my last.