Red - Hello Poetry

Red Nov 2018

sharks

doctor dearest
don't you know
I am only worth
the meat on my bones
boys bite chunks
of my empty flesh
I let one take my heart
now there's nothing left

#love #hate #heartbreak

Red Nov 2018

love will eat you alive

"I don't bite" he whispers into my plump flesh
he laid me on the table and spat stones over my eyes
distracting me from the consumption of my lower intestines

yea it's not meant to make sense
but the spitting stones over your eyes thing is a metaphor for his words blinding me
I hope you enjoy the visuals

#horror #love #lust #hurt #betrayal

Red Nov 2018

fluoxetine faith

how do you categorize pain
I can't describe my mood from 1-10
pump me full of chemicals doctor dearest
tell me who I'm supposed to be again
a m e n

#religion #depression #mental #illness #therapy #pills #medication #hate

Red Nov 2018

Infantry expression

we are squeezed
into this crowded existence
snotty faces wailing for attention
when we grow into our bones
we lose our brave lungs
and our blotchy red cheeks
stretch into such long faces
full-grown features don't cry for help
we bite our meaty tounges
and taste the blood of our disgraces

what if every step we take, every shirt we wear and every word spoken is a prolonged scream from birth

#childhood #identity #adult #silence

Red Nov 2018

beeswax existence

my skin is candle wax
I burn my being in search of a purpose
my thoughts melt and liquify
feelings simmering until I'm a puddle person
I scrape away my entity in search of a core
charred flesh beneath my fingernails
addicted to the sting I'm the lighters *****
scoop myself empty and present my entrails

#depression #identity #hate

Red Nov 2018

the possession

eyes droop
heartbeat jumps
sweaty hands
viens pump
the paranoia
eats at my chest
spreads through my limbs
panic possessed

Red Nov 2018

the lonely flesh

I force my feelings into my stomach
belly swelling and skin stretching
my body bursts open violently
guts, blood and emotion looking for a home
s p r e a d i n g

so basically I've been trying to communicate my emotions in a way that shows it's effect and damage, the gory imagery I'm presenting is created to rub you the wrong way, for me my feelings often feel detrimental to me physically and so that terrifying sinking feeling is what i am trying to portray

#depression #oppression #obsession