Mariana had everything a girl could wish for
Her parents approved it and she smiled
Her friends said for once it was right
Everything easy - the waters still
Everything in place, where it should be
Her lover kissed her everytime
but she can't put her soul when she does
2 meters tall and blue eyed
A breathing fantasy - but something's amiss
Mariana always felt this
Mariana had the perfect life
But she has the perfect twist

But Mariana has a yearning inside
A blaze devouring her guts
making her burn in desire
All of this is a lie
She's missing the fix from his brown eyes

Mariana had already done this before
But this time she feels so unwrong
Mariana has already broke up
with everything in the world
but this time she'll shoot for keeps
this time she doesn't get killed

Mariana said STOP
Suddenly, so abrupt
I want to get off this bus
Because she's got something best
This is not what I want
I am merely trying to get along
Mariana burnt the house down
in pure joy to exist

Everyone was so shocked
She saw the light
she had been trying to look the other way
but you can't run away
from the promises desire makes

And now Mariana is on the road
and she's home
her soul is free and some say she's gone
but she does not care
beauty hit her in the face
and that's something she can't refuse

I woke up this morning
Clairvoyance
everything falling into place
Feeling so full, so great

It was your kiss
it was your body all over me
it was - reality
it was - a fantasy
it was - everything

Clairvoyance - I never wanted him
I don't need anything but this
This hunger gets met
How good it felt

I woke up this morning
And all I felt was your breath on mine
It wasn't real, but I can feel
for miles

Clairvoyance - you and I
Clairvoyance because you fill me up
Clairvoyance because I ******* can

He liked the Pixies
and noisy rock as much as I do
but oh he could not
make me feel like you

His name is Alejandro, he is
the Swede from San Fernando
blue eyes and 2 meters tall he is
but oh he couldn't beat
your brown eyes and the glasses
and the shiver when you take them off
and kiss me strong

He was the prediction my parents made
a vegetarian lover that does care
and messages me all day
but my parents never read
my future too well
(They have good intentions
but they see no further)

He was a dream
He talked to me, but something's amiss
Something! - you are not him
He was not my dream
not the dream sweetly crafted
by God for me
not the dream I carry simply being me
are you, dear?
I only have these feelings to prove
and if that's the proof
then I'm ******* sure you are His/Her design
But that's not why I love you
I love you simply because...
you are you.
because of us

Some bury themselves in parties and drugs
other bury their head beneath their pillow
to choke their selves to death
Yet we are somehow the same
"No one makes it alive", they say
So don't blame us, we are just trying to cope
and it will never ******* stop
Adolescents - take no ****
from us adults - that forgot how we used to
bleed

Some take a path wrong - others simply stay home
Some wither because they just don't know how
All of them scratching 18 with their nails
The world lies there, but you can't fetch
Crotch about to burst in trampled on desires
unacknowledged life and shine under the teenage void
And I stopped being one of you years ago
But I can feel still every word
And I know you cannot die
in the same way that neither can I.

watch out for the small vital treasure -
your heart
your ***
your soul
Do not let them bite you off
unless it's in the neck
and that oh God feels good

My friends they are going to **** me
but I don't really think I care now
Bradley's saying it will lead to tears
but I felt so complete

That we might be back -in fact, we are-
and this time, we will make it grand
You didn't kiss my wounds
but they healed with your touch

My parents they are going to freak out
that I will be yours once again
but I don't think I am the same girl

Nothing's the way it was
Thank God!

How to make the magic
stay?

Familiarity is a *****
She's a very weird one indeed
She's the upside and the downside - everything!
To see you again and feel some of what I always felt
Even if it's dead - familiarity is the ghost that stays
So many people wrecked
because of familiarity's spell
So many people healed and brought back to the Sun
because of familiarity's hug
People kissing old lovers, folks lost in drugs

Familiarity - a small stone in my shoe...
Fiona was right all the time,
"I just really used to love him",
and familiarity
is what broke her then,
familiarity is the quiet storm
in a muddy heart

Alex of the twilight sits in front of me
In the twilight of his days,
just moments before his sunrise
-I bet-
And my soul is spilling as well as his
I don't know which way, though
He is opening his ******* soul!
(It took a shipwreck for him to do so)

His hair is long now
His heart is widened
If it only happened
some months before
But
no use in crying over spilt loves

And I am trying to push away
all the things brought back now
You are not dead - you are dying
Everyday and everyday, decaying

But I'd lie if I say I am deaf to your tones
To heal the wound you opened
that I stitched on my own
the scar is there
and this is stitching for its sake
it's opening the scab
to bleed once again!

You changed so much
yet you I can't trust
I flipped the page, why can't you?
I said hello to life
So my extra baggage I waved goodbye
You keep stuck to my side

Alex of the twilight, I am here, I am here
But this time - not what you think
I wish you good, even if good
is built upon our shipwreck -
that's kind of a truth
Life is not a line you can draw
life is a crazy sketch of torture and fun
and if you are lucky and smart enough
you can see the underlying pattern!
Yet it won't be the mind
opening the doors to your eyes
Life I can't measure with words
I'd rather do, do, do
and write while I stroll through.