Alex of the twilight sits in front of me
In the twilight of his days,
just moments before his sunrise
-I bet-
And my soul is spilling as well as his
I don't know which way, though
He is opening his ******* soul!
(It took a shipwreck for him to do so)

His hair is long now
His heart is widened
If it only happened
some months before
But
no use in crying over spilt loves

And I am trying to push away
all the things brought back now
You are not dead - you are dying
Everyday and everyday, decaying

But I'd lie if I say I am deaf to your tones
To heal the wound you opened
that I stitched on my own
the scar is there
and this is stitching for its sake
it's opening the scab
to bleed once again!

You changed so much
yet you I can't trust
I flipped the page, why can't you?
I said hello to life
So my extra baggage I waved goodbye
You keep stuck to my side

Alex of the twilight, I am here, I am here
But this time - not what you think
I wish you good, even if good
is built upon our shipwreck -
that's kind of a truth
Life is not a line you can draw
life is a crazy sketch of torture and fun
and if you are lucky and smart enough
you can see the underlying pattern!
Yet it won't be the mind
opening the doors to your eyes
Life I can't measure with words
I'd rather do, do, do
and write while I stroll through.

If he's dead then why you so afraid
if he's dead then why you shake
if it's dead then why you run away
if it's dead then why all this mess, hey?

You've been caressing your brain
with the nettles of thoughts of him
you don't want the man
you could have sworn
but a part of you still yearns for his touch
his love?

and I have to get away from you!
I see the sun shine when I do
I come in his arms all night through
you're a black spot on my light
but you and I could be sweet
if I knew how to do this

We've crossed the barrier
we've melt the ice
can we do it still
tell me what is the price

I guess I am still confused
but until you came I was so good
I want you, and maybe you do too
But we must wait for the flames
to be consumed
not to give in
we will die if we do it again
(at least I will)

Those flames
that have been set on by fate
and a little help from my friends

Reason never won
but reason is nothing but a beacon
of the light of the heart

Dishing out burgers
You tell me out of nowhere
that I am slow, and oh that hair
Where do you go? Somewhere you don't know
Somewhere you'd never dare
I simply live as artful as I can make

I am fairy dust
this is how I saved myself from going mad
You have no right to go
and condemn my unholy lamb

Where's my answer, where's my savior
I am 26, scraping through the papers
Scratching at the surface of something big

I will not give up to the man
I only do that in bed!
I could say or save so much but I only saved myself
it's a miracle everyday, you see
and I am geared towards the supernatural
geared towards the real thing

Oh ******* hurt me
and I might listen to you in the end
But you will never prevail
And where's my place
where on Earth?
You ain't them, never forget
But being half human never felt so great

You have no right to attack me
Because I am an alien force
I am odd, oh God
but I am strong
And in the end you'll lose
Because we carry the light
and protect it with our lives

I was 23
Too old to fall in love like a teen
But I had to begin right from the point
I left it
And now I find we are
in a place I know from back in time

This romantic friendship is nothing new to me
And it's not gonna hurt, unlike anything

Ache makes me write
And this romantic friendship
Is everything and nothing
at the same time
(that's the crux of life)

This romantic friendship
this unhealthy dynamic
This getting high on you
minus the body
It's not poetry
what I am craving
but it's poetry what I am getting

I've been here before
and it was 5 seconds before sunrise
so I better wait, right?

You ****** me up
But so will he!
And if I have to choose one way to die
Maybe I'd choose your existential problems
Maybe I'd choose your overdone libido
Maybe I'd choose your sweet gun

This romantic friendship
is what fills me when there's no him
even if no bed
We are turned to a kind of sunshine
cut below the waist

I am not behaving wisely
but neither do you!!
******* everything up
when things were right for once

There is a pattern in the sky
I can touch it and it hurts
There is a pattern in my mind
I see shadows, I never stopped being mad
I only got stronger, but my calling never stopped
I see stuff - only all the time
Am I mad, or am I just high
-eyes wide open-

I don't love you, I swear
but hands tied, this is my best
I am gagged - and probably used again

It was thrilling
You were my heart's true desire
All I needed to come alive
But you crushed it
Mercilessly
And I ate the crumbled cake
and got high on it
It saved my life
It was sweet nonetheless

And I flew to a different destination
And you lost my year long devotion
But you know, nothing ever dies
Not even you and I
I have to learn to live with this
Resisting desire,
the aftermath of what once was
But nothing ever dissappears
If you dare to dig
The key - to a happy or unhappy fate
Everything I live, I lived it back then
(and I'm ****** to this!)

Things I don't understand
only most of them!
And the night is disconnected
from the day
The body - walks away

This is all wrong
The wrong direction, the wrong road
Don't try to save face - just burn

The rush of thoughts
in my head
after coming
alone in my bed
A ***** fell from my head
Everything was going great
But that ***** made a mess

And there's no mess
in my morning mental musings
but I was tired of fighting
Burn love, it never saved me

Love is the biggest risk we run
But like the air, if we do not breathe
we die
Love is the only thing that will save us
from the cold fire
Love is scary - you are shaking in fear
at the sight of thirsty fullness
at the sight of Everything

The heart is wide
and big and wild!
You can't put doors to it
You can't tame its force
And that's the best
and that's the worse
But you can cut out the weeds
stopping its growth
You have to live with this Godly curse
Love is the thing, dear
But not the Word