Love is the biggest risk we run
But like the air, if we do not breathe
we die
Love is the only thing that will save us
from the cold fire
Love is scary - you are shaking in fear
at the sight of thirsty fullness
at the sight of Everything

The heart is wide
and big and wild!
You can't put doors to it
You can't tame its force
And that's the best
and that's the worse
But you can cut out the weeds
stopping its growth
You have to live with this Godly curse
Love is the thing, dear
But not the Word

It does not hurt
I've grown a protective skin
not a shell at all
But I can't hide that little sting
deep down

I admit my share of the weight
So I worked on it, and landed
to a more luminous place

I am a new woman
it does not hurt I said
Now my eyes have changed
but my brain is essentially the same
And the pain remains

Now I live for me, myself and I
(and who do I fool with that?)
and God I've grown up so much
But sometimes I must admit
my skin and its corrective balm
they break down

it's a bitter victory
over myself
it's an ironic smile
that burst into laughter
between the legs

It's painful it's different
it's saving me,
because they simply won't
And yet the truth is one
And the Sun...
what we all chase

There is something inside
that you just can't ****
it's the eternal
the chtonic
the real thing
it sleeps for years
next century it lives

You can't stop thinking
what about getting high
on life's drugs

It's nightmares
and dreams
it doesn't hide from you
so why did you do?
Can't speak anymore
yet my mouth dies to!
Sometimes I am too paralyzed
by pleasure
and the rest of the time
I am paralyzed by the afterthought

Just don't let it go
Let it get gone

I am so glad, so many reasons to smile
yet something rots inside
why, oh why?

Why am I so thrilled
to begin this journey without your kiss?
This kissless journey for you and me

My alien fellow traveler
you are lost, I showed you were so
Grab my friendly hand
-it reaches no longer
in the inside of your pants-
let's walk, let's walk

You make me somewhat high
when I am low
but I will help you
if I just can
no matter what!

You are sick, and broken,
and about to find something
You will swim the oceans to find
what you need
This is new - I want to see it be
You shine a light on me
But not as bright as him
I saw better days

Life is a moment
a flickering of the headlights
Then it's darkness
although sometimes

the light takes hold of the scene
only if you let it be

So much darkness, so much black
Ah, those moments so bright

If you live there
don't panic, don't fret
just wait for the lights
from night to day

Learn to discern
moments
Be your full self
Whatever it takes.

End of the painful poem
I draw the line here
My sad lines, that took me out from hell
My happy lines, that prompted my days

I want to look at the other side
but everyday life
is dark enough
so I don't even try
And I have seen a tiny light
so huge to my eyes

Love - you are elusive
so I won't try to trap you
It's a trap
*** - you are the truth
Love - who dares your name

I am wandering here
fluttering like
a mad butterfly
My anxiety to exist
was always so wide
And it will never stop
But the Sun blinds me
and I see nothing more

Want to join me in my ride?
I am ready to die
because it's the only way to stay alive
I admit - I am ******* high high high
But isn't that what it's all about?

My life is being  changed in so many ways
Silence and sound, everything gravitates
Silence when I'm full
Silence when I choke
Sound when I'm in heaven
when I'm in your arms
Silence and sound
Hidden but always present

And I feel too good to frame it
into a song
But something's missing then,
something's just a little wrong

I see the world
I see for miles
I'm stuck, I cannot write
But I could fly

I am seeing a different side
I haven't been so happy in a long time
I think...
I haven't been more conscious
that art is needed but so is life

The words flutter in my head
Life does!
But it dies in my guts
But it never fully dissolves
You are always who you are
That's the best thing
That's the worst.

There is something I cannot catch
something's on its way to sprouting
I better water it
I better empower it
Even if I feel dead sometimes