You don't just get
to
come over and make
small
talk
like everything is fine.
*******.
*******.
You opened the
gates. You gained control
again.
That's what it was about.
You always had to be in
charge.

I think
my
grandma
died.
But I don't talk to my
mom
anymore
so I'm not sure.
I feel numb.
I'm not okay.
I'mnotokay.
I'm done with this.
I want to be done with this.

Hey?
Anybody?
Wanna cuddle and cry and read poems and drink tea?
Wanna be happy and sad?
Wanna be together?
I'm so tired of being alone.
What about you?

God. I am so tired
of this
life. What did I
do?
What did i do?
I want to be sitting in the park with someone who
loves me.
And we'll be singing and talking about
the meaning of life.
And I'll get cold and he'll hold me.
He'll hold me.

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why dont they
why
why
why
dont they