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Jan 2015 · 810
not in sync
Phoenix Rising Jan 2015
you find me
hauntingly beautiful
on the days
i feel the
worse
i wish i could
share the moments
you love me
the most
with
you
Jan 2015 · 368
Untitled
Phoenix Rising Jan 2015
a prickling tickle I get from a love that's fickle
is sometimes desirable to a girl young and nimble
her mind is more rapid than the body itself
wants to feel her seat being tugged out from beneath her

she is aware a fickle love is unstable
her parents are a prime example of that label
give me the sweet gore that comes with
ever-changing pursuits of psuedo-fun
Phoenix Rising Jan 2015
the deja vu is far from new
telling me this path is true
i love you
and myself, too
life is to learn
learn to love
love is the essence
of what we call above
heaven

if what you feel is hellish
why do you think heaven is not achievable
i have never seen disorder in the way of the world
and perfect geometric designs
inside the plants
and the universe among the stars
i've never seen lack of balance
when sad makes happy, happy
and happy makes sad, sad

life is not exactly a mystery
you're the mystery
that resides inside yourself

the world is not trying to fool *you
people are a walking, talking mess and life is to balance themselves out energetically and emotionally (sorta the same/go hand in hand) and prepare to become once again (like many times before) etheric

the universe has many mathematical conducts
and if i were to say what is disorganized with the world...
i would not say the plants, the weather, nor the animal kingdom
I would consider a being due to the fact that we are an alienation of everything that's ever been on this earth from our time visiting
we are taboo, completely sudden
we have been alive on the minute scale of creation, to our knowledge
we are indeed here for a spiritual purpose
and i'm far from the only one that feels that way

we have too much energetic power and light within us
along with a set of skills for creation
to have been here once (in the flesh/form of anywhere in the universe)
we are so much MORE than we realize
Jan 2015 · 790
i.am.oxymoron.
Phoenix Rising Jan 2015
I am insane.
but I am not insane in just anyway.

I am completely sane.

I crave insanity.
Bad turns me on.
I am obsessed with the idea of a sociopath.
I want to never hold back words and actions.
Selfishness is ****.
But I will never be that way.
It's all I've ever wanted.
Was to be insane.
Jan 2015 · 293
writer's block
Phoenix Rising Jan 2015
My sharp teeth grip livid bruises onto my tongue
Never saying what I'd like to portray

I am incapable of transferring my emotions into language
My only apparatus is "my mind" and it's unequipped for this life

Maybe I am incompetent?
But surely, there is a way to use my time peacefully...

Words just spill out onto the screen of my laptop
And suddenly it becomes a subject I had no preparation for
Hah, sounds like my life
Jan 2015 · 519
Current Mood
Phoenix Rising Jan 2015
You're dissipating like any memory that no longer has relevance.


Sometimes, I think I loved you just for the hell of it.
I can't tell anymore.
It was so long ago.
within time, memories sure can become distorted...
Phoenix Rising Jan 2015
When we fell in love
The sky was blue
And it was new.
When everything was good
The sky was blue
And I wanted to be you.
When you said forever
The sky was blue
And we would stick as glue.
When we had our first fight
The sky was blue
And I had no clue.
When I drove away crying
The sky was blue
And I had not a single clue.
When we felt disconnected
The sky was blue then too.
When we lost each other
The sky then was the darkest blue.
...*I think the sky is still blue.
Jan 2015 · 620
memories
Phoenix Rising Jan 2015
It still hurts every day
But I'm trying not to think about it
Why do I still feel lonely
In between the people I lie with
I keep my mind numb
Because every time I have a minute
to myself
I think of you

And now I have panic attacks
It's you trying to get through to me
I can't escape the suffocation
I was never taught how to deal
Jan 2015 · 302
a note - not a poem
Phoenix Rising Jan 2015
I am blank with writer's block... I guess.
I will be back when I find something to make me want to write.
I only write this note because I don't think I'll have something for a while.
Jan 2015 · 331
I am content with hope
Phoenix Rising Jan 2015
I turn my gaze towards the cathedral window
I notice tiny snow particles fly sporadically
and that the sun is playing coy again
The wind wanted the limelight
and the only red tree danced away with it's glory

I used to be depressed, especially during winter
This is a sign, since I'm not
Jan 2015 · 773
Come and Go
Phoenix Rising Jan 2015
I love
breaking the surface of other's lives.
Sharing experiences,
sharing moments that will leave with the smoldering wood ash
in the early grey morning.

I like
knowing I've came and gone
leaving subtle imprints
that led people to their current spot.
Unaware and given no gratitude creates
a bittersweet symphony
in my heart.
Dec 2014 · 1.3k
What It Is
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
I fall in love
because I am afraid to be alone
Dec 2014 · 2.0k
example of how i think
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
****** addicts are funny not because they do ******
but because they lay on beds in every angle but normal.
Dec 2014 · 1.3k
attached
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
Love doesn't really change just because the person did.*



So, when you ask yourself "Am I crazy?" and "Why do I still love them?"
Remember these words.
Dec 2014 · 576
too tired for words
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
My soul split when I shared you it
and I discovered, last minute
you had a history
of quitting

A life barely lived,
you caught me by surprise
To find at so young
you have been already worn-out

Too tired for words
that which tend to base growth
within a relationship that is fickle
you're a sharp ice cicle
Dec 2014 · 565
Untitled
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
soft spokenly
a token of gratitude
to thee
what seems as imperfection
is great perfection
to me
never change
never want to be
some one else's arrange
Dec 2014 · 501
blind
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
Not even a millennium
would cut through your cranium
I'd have to be on lithium
to withstand your oblivion
Dec 2014 · 451
Drained
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
You owe me many nights of sleep
and medicine for making me weak
I can't even breathe anymore
because my lungs are battered and sore
from trying to tell you I love you
Over and over and over
Dec 2014 · 333
eh
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
eh
Sometimes,
I can't believe I am alive

Other times,
I wonder why I am

Most of the time,
I forget
Dec 2014 · 748
Untitled
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
High degree of lunacy from the lack of meaning in her life.
She did what she wanted, yet I don't think she wanted anything.
A dead stare she carried closely almost everywhere she went.
I overheard her saying the world is broken.
No, she is broken.
Dec 2014 · 851
Editor in Chief
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
Head of a bold pen
writing on a whim
with no deadline
Paper and lines
in front of your eyes
all of the time

**Creating this life
Dec 2014 · 361
repetition is hell
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
Much woe
for the foes
I encounter,
I know
it is not I
who causes deep tragedy
that feeds the hatred  
coursing through their veins
poverty of heart
The withering shoes
on their dusty feet
They tell me a tale
of repetitive misfortune
Succumbed to the nature
of hurtful thoughts
Will they ever want to stop
and walk a new direction?
Dec 2014 · 480
i love you
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
you
are so
much more than

forever you will reside
a place inside my heart
you left too many imprints for
me to deny changes have been made

i love these changes because i love you
my heart will always ache a sense of compassion
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
-The moment you stop wanting it, you will have it
-The moment you stop planning, your life will begin
-To be happy, you must stop saying you will achieve it after a goal
-Forcing will not help what's meant to be a falling into placement
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
A voluntary victim of life
Parasites called eyes
What we see are lies
We learn to segregate our intuition from physicalities
You gotta unfold inward
A paradoxical lesson of how to 'wake up'
Dec 2014 · 2.6k
Good Morning Glory
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
Blessed that I received rest
that some do not acquire
My toes curling on each fuzzy stair step I make my way up
as my nose follows the familiar scent of coffee beans
I'm drowsy from the dawn sun playing coy
Snug as I could be from the burning wood
the little things <3
Dec 2014 · 5.0k
To My Brother: Joshua Haines
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
you're my kin
through thick and thin
you've seen me cry
and you've seen me die
reborn into new
and watched me grew
thrived into this bright being
that you're proud of seeing
i love you, broseph
you're dope as ****
i'll always be there
no matter where, i swear
Dec 2014 · 287
off kilter
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
the walls muffle screams
that overlap into my dreams
i wish those sad people could stop fighting
so i could sleep instead of writing
Dec 2014 · 1.3k
Tweaking Off Happy
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
My heart is slipping up my throat and my eyes are half open
my stomach is ecstatically quivering
I'm high off a smile and my toes are tipped
Blissed-out
Dec 2014 · 656
Eternal
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
I love you deeper than physical
Your skin is beautiful but all in all, it doesn't really matter what you look like
I love you [your soul]
and I'm grateful you love me back
Your body isn't you, you are the soul. Never forget.
Dec 2014 · 782
You
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
You
I love the sound of your lip bouncing back from my pulling bites,    
  the breathy laughs and seductive gasps          
How your touch is gentle but assertive    
           and how you leave me needing more
Dec 2014 · 493
The Harsh Truths
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
she had weak tear ducts
and he had good gaze control
she hoped for an epiphany that she meant something
but no fairytale unfolded
eventually she grew numb
and he disappeared
Dec 2014 · 547
woot, woot
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
I have a job
It's pretty odd
I babysit drunk friends

*Grown *** men
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
I'm so gangster that I have gold tears
so cheers, grab that beer and **** outta here
New york city clubs, pubs, and big bassy dubs
Throwing my money around like I'm ******* dumb
but I'm not, I'm loaded with a gross so big it's gross
I have strangers waving at me, smiling at me,
don't you see how awesome I be
Nah please you jealous of me
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
Welcome to Hello Poetry
and thanks for following me.
I know it can be tough when you start,
but your poems are always great if they are from the heart.
You'll stay up late awake at night
staring at your computer light
with no thoughts coming to your mind,
ticking your fingers on the keyboard while your teeth grind.
This poem is a thanks
for the times you deal with blanks.
The times you know are tough,
I, too, am familiar with how rough
that feels.
And I swear it never heals,
only goes away temporarily
just to smack you more disparagingly.

So, here's to the poets
who are so fixated on blemishes that they don't even know it.
Dec 2014 · 538
Addicting Love
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
I want to ingest your soul
because feeling whole isn't enough
on the outside

I'm tweaking for a kiss
Shooting up your touch
It's my version of a crutch
Dec 2014 · 309
The 2nd Dimension
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
Have you ever sat on a chair in a room?

Have you ever sunk deep inside yourself and drowned in your own emotions?

Have you ever caught yourself picking the fabric of that chair as you yell and scream at the one you say you love?

Have you ever felt like the objects in that room vanished along with your body?

*Yeah...
Dec 2014 · 822
LSD- The 4D Experience
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
I saw tiny fractals emerge out of a single chosen hair on your head
That was a glorious day for me,
because I met new rays of colors
Outlines of green and red overlapping everything my eyes met


I discovered a new form of language that could not be spoken,
but I knew it was shared with my companions
I felt sensitive to vibrations and waves
That came from thought, sound, and emotion

I fell in love with serious,
and laughter busted through if serious turned to hesitance
In the end it didn't really matter,
because it was all worth discovering

Time turned into Now
Thinking became abstract
Music became a lot more powerful, even physically
Sight became eventful
Dec 2014 · 1.0k
<3
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
<3
Love like a crocheted scarf
that hugs my heart,
time taken dearly to give warmth.
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
I was sitting patiently at the hair salon when a thought struck me.  I observed people around me. I observed the husband and his wife connect, laughing humbly at each other's jokes that weren't very well constructed.  I observed people walking left and right past the salon through the big glass windows.  The pedestrians would glance back every now and then, as they paced ever so quickly to their destination.  The thought that struck me was how disconnected I was while being connected, simultaneously.  The people didn't know me and I didn't know the people, on a deep level.  I enjoyed how close the relationships they all separately had, though.  In a way, the relationships I observed that were very disconnected from me made me feel...connected.  It's an odd feeling to explain, but I felt warm.
It's fun to wonder what people are up to.
Dec 2014 · 537
Teenage to Adulthood
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
I used to do drugs for fun,
and sometimes I still do.
Mostly, I use them to run
from feelings I get addicted to.
It's hilarious to say how ironic it is,
the paradox I live.
Dec 2014 · 276
Untitled
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
Benadryl hums it's numbing song and I dim down the lights to surrender from my wobbly eyes.
Dec 2014 · 325
Untitled
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
The sun was weighing down past the horizon and there stood an old brick home.  The house was no more than two-stories high and possibly had a basement.  Chlorophyll veined vines crept and crawled up the stained, battered sides.  This home had a story, memories remain stored inside the ambiance.  The wind whispered and hissed at me, pushing my body away.  It was a little unsettling so I went back through the ancient styled path I found.  The next day, when the sun was at it's prime, I looked around for the mysterious path and it ceased to exist.
Dec 2014 · 2.3k
Leonardo DiCaprio
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
I wish I could party with Leonardo DiCaprio
We'd be crazier than "The Wolf of Wall Street"
Johnny Depp would be there, too, riding in the backseat
He would come up and sit with Leo and I, at the party on the couch
And say "Arnie stop it, you're doing too much coke. AHA, just kidding now scoot over and let me have a blow."
After we'd wipe our noses, up we go
To dance, dance, dance and drink drinks that glow
Hours on end we would spend our money brutally
Because our money basically speaks english fluently
Yeah, Leonardo DiCaprio would be a badass friend
Johnny Depp too, we'd have too much fun in the end
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
The moment you took your last breath,
and I heard the croak dissipate into the corner of the room
Your body took form of a silhouette
and now you're nameless

You are more than who you were when you had a name
Yet everyone treats your death with shame
my depiction on after life
Dec 2014 · 1.7k
egoless love
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
I hope you know what love really is

and if you don't, I hope you learn one day
That love isn't a possessive way
and if you let your ego lead
You are sure to feel jealousy, pain, and greed

Love takes maturity

because it doesn't always work out they way you'd like
You need to be able to understand so you won't have spite
Love goes deeper than skin
and it touches within

You want them to be happy and even if that means letting go*

A smile on your face will still exist
You are genuinely happy for them and love has taught you to subsist
They are still around breathing the air you breathe
and that alone will always keep you relieved


Love teaches lessons that stick with you till the end
How I have felt once in my life and am blessed to say I have experienced such. I still love him to this day and always will.
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
Fear is a man-made obstacle course
That you push yourself to relive before trying out

Fear is becoming unnatural
Because it's no longer about surviving violence

Fear is all in your head
All you have to do is not fear
The key is in your hand, why don't you unlock the door? Theres never a good enough reason to be afraid to try something that may result in pure happiness. Never let anyone take that from you, do what you love and yearn to do.
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
I need to get up, I need to get up!
Go upstairs and grab a cup.
Pour myself some coffee,
and listen to mom get bossy.
I will, I will!
Let me just take my pill.
Grab the adderall,
now I can do it all!
Eventually, Eventually!
I should probably mention something about me.
Sleep is my favorite thing to be,
but these drugs sure do get me glee.
I'm up, I'm up!*
I'm washing the tub.
I'm getting the dirt out of every corner of my room,
and I have so much energy I could rush a flower to bloom.
i wish i had the energy like this poem
Dec 2014 · 299
Untitled
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
i love my little, simple life
i feel nothing but gratitude
i love the conversations i experience
i love being aware of touch, smell and taste
i love hearing a new favorite song
i love the animals i encounter
i love connecting with hearts
i love a good cry
i love that we die
i love that we speak languages
i love that we are a beautiful mess
i love that i am a soul
i love that i have a body
i love that art exists
i love that everything feels dreamy
i love that i can love
i love my little, simple life*
i feel nothing but gratitude
Dec 2014 · 1.8k
test subject #dmt
Phoenix Rising Dec 2014
kaleidoscopic geometry
                                   and shapes made from sound
human reality
             is an experiment
say hello to the machine elves
                                who reside inside mandalas
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