despite the small time

and the cold nights half-sleeping

i still enjoy it

my empty stomach has been ringing and twisting for two days now

you finally proved to me that you’ve been floating outside of my perimeter

instead nestling inside where i’ll keep you safe

and rather than hauling you down and drowning you

in the depths of my anger and insecurity

i punish my empty stomach that’s been ringing and twisting for two days now

the string of thoughts that runs through my mind is longer than the hair caught between our lips

i run long strands of golden blonde across your open lips, as you burry me in olive colored skin and white bones

you asked me to cut your hair

i cut you until you called me beautiful

all the time we were running

we didn’t know that we were slowly going

backwards

when i'm with you
everything else seems so
insignificant

How much time in the mirror
have I wasted on hating myself,

when I could have
been loving you?

I truly
CANNOT
WAIT
to not love you anymore