There was a loud pop,
Then there was chaos
Like the very word "silence" had ceased its existence
For no other reason
But to be lusted after.
And the man with blood flowing from his head
Lying face down on the pavement
Saw not his own life in a flash
But that of a daughter he never knew
Lived out a full 90 year lifetime.
Whom he was able to love with a love
That could only stem from absolute
Deafening
Chaos.

The more we talk the
more i fall for
h
  e
     r.

i
cut what no one can see
and rinsed the razor in the rain

your achilles heel
blood and skin
and  stainless steel
the moon  was self inflicted
the  stars was all afflicted

i tried to **** myself
a year ago-
a year ago
i wasn't me
a year today
i've experienced
so many things
that a year ago
i would have
missed out on
had i
a year ago
succeeded
in death
so a year today
i'm quite thankful
my
[heart still beats in my chest]

Breathe in reality
Exhale insanity

Notice how
Insanity
In-sanity
Comes from within

In-side we are all In-sane.

put my heavy head
to bed
too full of thoughts.
i'll have
too many dreams
they'll wake me up
and even though my eyes
will want so much
to close
i will pry them open
because i am
afraid

The wall
Hard
Cold
Solid

A silent companion

Comfortable

The wall
Won't move
The wall
Won't disappear
The wall
Won't change
The wall
Won't break
The wall
Won't turn
Green
The wall
Won't turn
Blue

The wall
Supports the weight
The wall
Shelters
The wall
Calms
Blank
White
Bliss

Sleep
Shuts off everything
Else

And I am
At peace

Sleep
The Wall
And I

chipped china cups stained
with cherry red prints from your lip stick.
the way you swing your body languidly
through the wispy smoke
hanging in the air like a reunion of ghost;
always enchanted me so.
here the graves lie of all the lovers whose
hearts were severed by your gentle fingers
cutting out the sacred testimonies wedged
brightly in every heart.
they stained the earth,
for they had something
to give
but although your eyes open
with surprising brilliance,
how can anything you see
hold meaning?