All these intervention shows say
Sticking to your bottom line forces change.

I gave you a bottom line...
Everything stayed the same.

I’ve seen the seasons shift,
One to the next
For two long years.

I’m still waiting for the day
I find you here,
Ready for help
Or already healed.

I didn’t ask you for the moon or the stars
Like most little girls ask of their hero-daddy.

I only pleaded that you get treatment
For your pain, your addiction, your disease.
But once again, you chose your pride over me.

Two years I’ve waited,
And I’ll wait two more
Because I’ll always love you.
No matter how often
You hurt me to the core.

Distant as a ship,
Cliche as it is,
That’s what I’ve become.
Trapped inside a snowglobe
Just looking out,
Filled with crippling doubt.
I try, but for what? For who?
I put myself last on the “to do”.
People-pleaser is all I’ll ever be--
It’s my safety,
It’s what I know.
So, when the globe gets too cold
That’s where I go.
When I cannot please,
I turn in on me.
Low as low can be.
Oh the monotony.

Remember when I saw the good in life?
Remember when I saw through the haze?
Remember when I hated sitting idly for days?
Those times are over. Done.
All I want to do is float, coast
Painless, without feeling
Numb is fine
Numb is safe
Numbness is mine
To have and to hold
Always reliable and guaranteed
Never let me down, no need

I can’t explain it.
A dream deferred:
Forced to observe,
Live vicariously through people
For the rest of my life.
Watch, facilitate, no thanks.
What can you do in life
If you can’t do all that you’ve dreamed?
Sit and swallow it?
Try to believe?
I’m just coasting through,
Trying to find my way,
But my way is filled with potholes,
***** traps, and rattlesnakes.
Doesn’t my head realize-
It’s my heart that’s at stake?

Hey lonely girl, I feel you.
Hey cryin’ child, I hear you.
Hey little boy, it’s written all over your face.
Hey, lean on my shoulder
It will get better as you get older

At night in your room you cry
‘cause they don’t understand.
I feel your pain
Because I was you.
I’ve been there,
And I made it through
— So can you

You sit up at night, asking why you’re alive
The answer, I know: you were born to fly.

Rest easy, darling,
Wait for the clouds to clear
Make the best of what you’ve got.
But when you can’t,
I’ll still be here

Little child, all alone in your room,
Just close your eyes
The pain will be over soon.

You’ll make it.

Hope and dream the night away
And you’ll find a safe place.
You’re strong
You’re beautiful
— This I know.

So, baby,
Don’t hide away
You are not alone.

Dry your eyes
You’ll be just fine.
Lean on my shoulder.
Soon, the pain will be over.