i would rather you torture me everyday with unkind words,
than not exist in my life at all.

either way its meaningless.

i remember waking up in the middle of the night
to an open window with rain sprinkling in
and landing gently on my bare legs.

where did you go?

time has no limit,
but youth does.

i think i might actually
be mentally ******* insane.

*****.

stop coloring inside the lines,
and paint the whole **** page.

"I realized what true hate is today, did you know that?"

"Really? What is true hate?"

"It's when you think of someone or something that causes your body to shut down, tense up, and spasm all at once. They cause your teeth to grind, your bones to sting, and your veins to halt pumping blood through your body. Your heart shrivels up, and spits in disgust, and your stomach twists violently. "

"What got you to realize this?"

"Do you really wanna know?"

"Of coarse."

"This morning when we woke up and you wrapped your arms around me, and whispered, I love you."

we tell lies to get the truth,
but when the truth comes out,
we wish it was lies