What was it like to love him ? Asked Gratitude.
It was like being exhumed, I answered. And
brought to life in a flash of brilliance.

What was it like to be loved in return ? Asked Joy.
It was like being seen after a perpetual darkness, I
replied. To be heard after a lifetime of silence.

What was it like to lose him ? Asked Sorrow.
There was a long pause before I responded :

It was like hearing every goodbye ever said to
me—said all at once.
-Lang Leav

I'm sorry that I steal your sad songs

I'm sorry I ride on your highs
And coast past your tears with a forgetful mind

I'm sorry that we can't talk about anything real anymore without smoke and *****

I'm sorry that your grandfather died and I talked about my love life instead

I'm sorry that I'm a liar

I'm sorry but I am not close to being. The Real Deal

I'm sorry that you had to buy me another flour baby for school after mine busted

I'm sorry that I am always the passenger

I'm sorry that you had to cut off your bracelets for soccer

I'm sorry that he's gay

I'm sorry that I cursed the city for you

I'm sorry that I can't keep my mouth closed about anything

But I'm trying to learn the value of secrets

I'm sorry

Don't let me die peacefully...
Let me endure the pain I so carelessly inflicted on you
May I know just torn apart your heart must be

Don't let me forget...
Everything that was said, and better...what wasn't
I wish to remember just how much each syllable stung

Don't let me unsee...
The state you're currently in
Please allow me to gaze upon the destruction I have caused
Let the chaos burn itself into my eyes

Don't let me walk innocently...
Monsters don't live happily ever after
They can't play the night in shining armour

                         **Because the wickedness in them
                                Is the wickedness in me...
                               Monsters don't get to love

Not once, but twice
Have I outrun this darkness
Yet behind me, it looms closer than ever
Its unrelenting pursuit halted, when we're together

Not once, but twice
Have I slain these demons
Fought with all of me, left battered and broken
Those battle scars are but my only token

Not once, but twice
Was my back against the wall
Forced unto it and pinned against my will
Fate had stricken me with the intent to ****

Not once, but twice*
Have I outrun this darkness
I wouldnt keep going if it wasnt for you
Nothing can stop me, this is what I do

*For you