for you, i hold nothing but contempt;
full of lies and hateful words.
i regret every single day i spent
every single voice of yours i heard.

it might as well be ******
in an oasis of *** and fantasy
and you didn't listen when i'd murmur
at your hand, i lost all sanity.

my prime weakness,
my ultimate curse
the karma, it seeks us
leads us to our hearse.

9:25 PM
a star falls, i was the only one to see it
about two feet across from me is where you sit
you told me the only people where your temper does not fit
me and your parents, you push away, bit by bit

9:42 PM
i am looking you dead in the eye
while you watch the stars collide
my majesty, my bona fide
the ghastly little creature that runs rampant in my mind

10:31 PM
i turn the corner
and the stars meet my eye
i feel just like a foreigner
who's lost all track of time
that numb hollow ache in the center of my chest
is where you and i stay settled,
and the memories of when you'd watch me undress.

11:00 PM
it's me still, and
you're still on my mind
it gets harder each time
to stand
and leave you behind.

i promise to keep you warm.

i still want to spend
all the beautiful days with you
but i no longer bleed a shade
with your name laced in the hue
i am tired from nights i've lost
to the thought of you

the likeness of our minds
repel and confine
i have so many things to say,
with no where to begin
but i suppose it's okay,
since you'd never care to hear them.

this is not a love letter
this is not a suicide note
all in all, i've gotten better
but upon your name, i still choke.

those coal black eyes
i barely met
but
got to know so well
the panic, the fear
the mania, the psychotic
the love, the joy
the trust, the life

i see them now behind screens
living life as they should
plagued by the demons from behind

you were asking me what happens if you have an ******,
you grabbed me by the shoulders and told me the devil was here.
i saw it in your eyes,
but i'm not sure what it was

you are not crazy, my dear
dark skinned beauty
you are not sick
you are alive and you are well
from behind the screen

i've been silent for a while
my words hold a numb distance
all simple and docile
it will return, but for now, good riddance

the waves no longer rage
or beg for me to stay
and the winter is passing
and for air, i'm no longer gasping

i am breathing and i am grounded
i am solidified and no longer broken
some sort of tranquility, i've found it
but it's left me so softspoken.

Your hands untied the noose
Without even knowing what it was
Everything you do, irony shades it's hue
We seem to embrace that chapter of life
That begins with us.

That jagged birthmark across your back
Where my fingers dance
Your eyes dialate, that cool black
Into my heart, your seed still plants.

Watching your fingers slide against the strings
My muse has returned
He listens when I sing
Shaking off his winter sunburn

winter froze us solid, solitary
i am no longer by your side
the omen calls.
hoping for something different;
oh, how useless.
unordinary and bold,
the time between us grows.

yes, i am alright without you
okay, i know you're hurt
unforgiven sins lay barren

its all over

all of the evening sunsets
mindbending in their infinity

fear and love
impeccably, are two very different things
never risk where
empathy lies