you've got the night
love just like words
hope inside,
feel the fingers, gone

that long old broken look
you'll hold loose
stay in bed
with your tree dreams

the world came to forget,
apart from remembering,
the sound leaves tears.
dead, hard, growing bones

wont meet that man,
lips like air,
drown, dear

faces watch
arms run
lungs hide
breathe, die.

i wish burning hearts closed
pretty smoke, tired scars
your clouds breath shattered,
lay, wait

god met ashes,
the sky turned hopeless
sick of leaving stars
snow sheets make no difference anymore

walk, smile.
grasp the breeze, gentle.

what doesnt **** you makes you wander
those frozen minutes drag out longer
what doesnt **** you makes you ponder
hearts no longer growing fonder.

hold on for dear life
before it throws you off the edge
sometimes its all you find that's left
it gets too hard, sometimes
for us to remain in line
but don't cry, little soul(dier)
everything will turn out just fine.

there's an (empty) space where your fingers laced
along mine, creating puppet strings in my (heart)
mind (the gap)

don't get too close to the edge or you'll find yourself
frayed and (echoes) screaming
until your voice falls along with your life (and)

i put the noose around my neck, i missed you then
but my legs were too long for (death) success

there's a hidden message just for you
between the lines and the spaces of every word
like the spaces between my fingers
where yours used to be.

now my neck aches
where your (fingers should've been, squeezing) heart beat along side mine
phlegm rises in my throat just enough to drown me
in the (poisonous) smoke i love so dearly

you were there, asking me for relief
but instead i gave you
my bleeding heart,
you asked me what it was,
not knowing how to respond
i told you it was all i had (left)

Write a poem.

your words are ethereal
they keep me solid
red wine, aged since 1990
keeps you lingering in my mind

i can't see past your brown eyes
they're my blue skies
big enough to be mirrors
to my empty soul

what would we do
if we spent hours with each other
speak in tongues and
writhe together over love lost

the weight of your angel wings
is sending shivers down my spine
open windows and shady trees
sentences that do not rhyme

i can't let you go
with your open arms
that keep me on my level
the oceans sigh for us
the sand tumbles over itself
keep me out of harms way
when i drown my tears
in the blood red

you and your
bad news
look me in the eyes
and tell me something new

you say the pain will pass with time
but i can't please you
the way i used to

when i warned you not to fall in love with me
i didn't foresee the true future
where you took my advice, and i, well
i lost myself to your clouds

this memory is one of my favorites
where you and i went to the baseball game
with your parents and
your dogs that hated me
and we walked around the stadium
the sunset was almost as beautiful as you
then you begged your mother for beer
but instead you found intoxication
from in between my thighs

and then there was the time we got lost
on the way to annapolis,
our minds too cloudy to figure out the gps
so instead you got pizza, and i got frozen ice
but we were together and happy
before anything ever happened

do you remember when
we walked through the forest and i
expressed to you my love for radiohead and we
shared our deepest secrets on a rotted log

please remember the time
we first stayed the night with each other
it's hazy, but i can clearly see
your hands all over me
where waking up next to you
was the most refreshing place

and the times we spent naked together
our bodies intertwined, unafraid
of judging eyes, of wandering minds
where we were one

now you can't see past
the times i left shattered in my wake
and i suppose i deserve the solitude more
than your hands around my throat
although i'd much prefer the latter

you're gone and i gotta stay high
all the time
to keep you off my mind

i'm waiting for the words to make a difference
but you always focused on my actions
where they were shaky and full of twists and turns
places where your mind couldn't follow

i have done more wrong to you
than i could ever think to do
and it's like i've dragged myself across
a bed of all the blades
used in your name

i just want to wake up where you are,
one day.

it's fleeting

where are you now
in this great big world
are you leaving flames for footsteps
and burning down this town
can you remember to a time
where our words weren't like daggers and
our hearts weren't coal?

can you live without me so easily
three words so eloquently said
holding the world in their little white hands
"i miss you," i say, with utter defeat
i can feel it from my toes,
all through my body heat.

am i forgotten as swiftly as i came,
like the words you said that took my breath away
under blankets and blood stained sheets,
we spent our nights together, incomplete.

could you stay for a little while longer?
i could really use the extra time.