The rain was cold upon my skin
Warm air makes it hard to breath
Gentle wind blowing through the trees
Birds chirping flying past me
Bees are buzzing, grass is getting watered
Being surrounded by nature, oh but what’s better
To dance in the rain, soaking it all in
No matter how wet I get, I call that a win

In the distance you hear
Soft whistling, leaves rustling, a walking deer
Within the sounds of nature

Walking in nature
Feeling the wind
Wrap it’s arms around me
Sun beating down
Drying my tears
Saying the unsaid words
As the birds sing a song
To the music in my head

Today I rode a horse
So peaceful and surreal
Through the woods, the scenery was unreal
Meditation and head clearing it was for me
The name of my horse was Kid, how appropriate it may be
A slow walk through the trails to the unknown
For me, this was breathtaking, relaxing, helping me grow
Finding myself while getting lost in nature’s home
Riding a horse may be scary to some
But for me this was mentally and emotionally a lot of a fun
Clearing my mind of all that’s not been said
I can go to sleep tonight knowing I’m fully ok, as I lay down in bed...

In need of a friend
I am here
Always to listen
To be your support
Never fear
No one is there
I’ll be your friend
Even though I’m not near...
...You can count on me....

If you need me
I’ll be there
If you don’t
I’ll

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Never once was there a doubt when you asked me
To be your wife as you got down on one knee
You said our day wasn’t
“perfect”
Until you said
“Will You Marry Me”
As I sat there in shock and thought
“Is this really happening?”
From that day forward you have made me the person I am today
We’re always on the same page
Inside each other’s minds
As close to perfect
Since you still give me butterflies

It won’t be easy
It’ll never get easier
You’ll cry a little less...
Catch your tears
Bottle them up
Use those tears
When you need
Strength To
Heal

I don’t know if and when I’ll ever feel the same again
It takes time to just to comprehend
Understanding all the feelings and emotions running through your mind
Wishing I could go back and rewind time
But to push forward looking to the future
Without forgetting even though it was torture...

This feels like a never endless dream or maybe a nightmare turned into reality
Whatever it may be, let this pass seemingly
Allowing us to get back to somewhat normalcy...

You do your best
It’s never enough
Talk **** about you
Yet smile to your face
I guess I’m just a punching bag
Who never speaks up
I give it my all
But it’s never enough

“I’ll never forget the beginning of May, the day you grew your wings and flew away...”

September 10, 2001.....
Everything was normal when we all went to bed
Woke up in the morning doing our daily routines
Shower
Breakfast
Kids to school
Walk the dogs
Feed the cats
Commute to work
Never fearing the worse could possibly happen....
We all know, and will never forget, where we were when the news hit
I, myself, was home sick from school, waking up not understanding what was happening....
NYC was hit tragically, millions in danger, from around the world
Many people commuting from many neighboring states
Talking to their loved ones along the way
Never realizing that would be the last time when they said “I love you” and “goodbye”
Everyone held their breath when the first plane hit, thinking it was a freak accident
A few moments later, another plane hits the other tower
It had felt like time stopped and everything was frozen
Debris and smoke filled the air, silent screams of confusion and fear were felt as if we all were there
People running to save their lives, others froze who were shocked and surprised
Emergency crews risked their lives, to help wounded people and others in the line
So many hopeless people lost hope, they fought hard but didn’t survive
September 11, 2001 we all will never forget everyone who lost their lives
Never seeing it coming, as two planes collide
Into the Twin Towers in NYC taking so many precious lives....

“I’ll never forget the beginning of May, the day you grew your wings and flew away...”

I never had....

That positive pregnancy test

An ultrasound to see you or hear your heartbeat

Moments of happiness knowing our family was growing

Enjoyment of growing a baby inside of me

I never knew you existed, until you were gone....

I never had....

Never losing sight
Never losing sigh
Never losing sig
Never losing si
Never losing s
Never losing
Never losin
Never losi
Never los
Never lo
Never l
Never
Neve
Nev
Ne
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Never losing sight
Of what’s right in front of you
Be thankful
Be thankfu
Be thankf
Be thank
Be than
Be tha
Be th
Be t
Be
B
E
For what you have in life

Our stories may be similar
The end result the same
But the journey for all us
Is a different game
We all played
Never being one in the same...

It’s never to late to
Start over
Better yet
Start a new chapter
Create new memories
Begin anew
Broaden your horizons
But always remain you

You may have to swim
As far as the sand bar
But your dreams are never too far

We closed the door
One final time
Walked down the stairs
Stopped at the bottom
Grab hands
Squeezed them tight
Jumped into our new adventure
Together feeling so right
Here’s to writing our new book of our life

We closed the door
One final time
Walked down the stairs
Stopped at the bottom
Grab hands
Squeezed them tight
Jumped into our new adventure
Together feeling so right
Here’s to writing our new book of our life

Everyday is a new beginning to embark on a different journey but yet staying on the same path of life...

New beginnings
Old endings
Chapter closed
New book begins

Today is a new day
Embrace it
Smile
Laugh
Spread some love
Take a deep breath
Just know your loved!

Today is a new month
Today is a new day
Don’t turn back the page
Keep them memories of yesterday

Mother Earth is cracking at the seams
Making way for you to manifest and release a new moon for you and me
Center yourself
Relax and set it free
Focus on that one thing you need to release
Your stronger than you know
Just let it go
Following your journey
Allowing yourself to grow within the light of the new moon rising

Waking up
Watching the news and all you see
So many mass casualties
Motor vehicles mulling people down
Someone opening fire in a busy store
Young kids damaging others property
Innocent people living in fear
It’s sad to see that terror trumps the good happening around the world recently

There’s a time to turn the page and start a new chapter and there’s a time to close the book and start a new story..

Why do we all say
“A new year, a new me?

Why do we continuously “change” every new year?

If we changed every year for every year of your birth, we would never be the same person?

Why don’t we say
“ A new year, new goals and dreams?”

Just a thought...

I’m going to sit back and take it all in
What a year for all of us this has been
The highs
The lows
The ups
The downs
But, here we are with two feet on the ground
For this is the last day of this year
I will spend it giving cheer
Even though the times are still rough
We can get through anything if we pray hard enough
For me, today, I will reflect on everything that has helped me grow
2020, wasn’t the greatest, but I’ve learned a lot  
I plan on bettering myself
Give my mind a break
Continue on this journey of life
Grow within my experiences
Exceed my expectations
Learn, learn , learn
I’m not saying goodbye to 2020
But rather say “ Thank You”
Sounds crazy but it has changed me for the better
I look forward to 2021
Welcome in a clean slate for myself
Fresh start and a new beginning with an open mind
Thank you 2020, even though it’s been a rollercoaster ride
2021, please be a better, happier, year... For all...

At night
I’m the happiest I can be
Because your sleeping
Next to me

To have you there
Holding my hand
I feel safe as can be
Because your sleeping
Next to me

The best way
To end the day
In each others arms
When we whisper
“I love you baby”
To say goodbye to today

I feel comfort when you lay
Next to me
At the end of the day

Because your sleeping
Next to me
All my worries go away

Nine years ago, we said “I do”
As my mom and dad gave me away to you
Two hearts conjoined into one
Confessing our love in front of everyone
You are my best friend
You are my world
You are my rock
You are my everything
I found my happiness within you
Through all of our ups and downs, love, and laughter
I found my “Happily Ever After”

I love you always and forever baby

Happy Anniversary

How do you let go of something you never had control over
Constant reminders in everyday life
Feeling of excitement through someone else eyes
Yet, I was left, with an empty heart, and tear filled eyes....

The sky is light blue with white and grey swirling clouds peeking through
The wind is blowing
The chill is in the air
Traffic is flowing without a care
Children are laughing as they walk to school
Ready to learn, not being a fool
It’s just another day or is it?
Ready to tackle this great day
Be happy your alive, healthy and happy isn’t that enough to say?
Say your alive and well
Healthy and happy goes a long way
Don’t harbor on yesterday
Don’t think about tomorrow
Just live for TODAY!

The moment when you have no expectations is the moment that your perception will change the path in which everything happens

The other day
I stood inside
Watching a classroom of children
Walking to the park
I took notice to two little girls
Holding each others hands
That’s not surprising since they were crossing the street
But what I noticed was much more then that of holding hands
The little girls not more the age 7 or 8
One was white and the other was of color
We all can take note
We are born to love each other
Have no Hate
Love is love
Even from a young age
We can all learn from these little girls...
We are born to see everyone the same and have NO HATE...

The thoughts in my head are bleeding out of my ears
I wonder if anyone knows what I've been thinking all these years
Sometime the noise is so loud I forget it's actually reality I am hearing
Where is the off button to shut out the world from all the ruckus that swirls around my head
Is it real?
Is it fantasy?
Word, feelings, images bouncing around trying to find a way to escape
For now I will keep it all inside of me
Until I figure out a way to stop the noise, turn the volume down and release the mysterious things that I have been through in my existence....

You rev up your car

Make a whole lot of noise
            
                Yet

You ain’t go anywhere fast...

The pressure you find
Immense at times
Carrying the weight
Your whole life
Seems to be just fine
Because that’s who you are
99% of the time