He doesn't understand how much she struggles,
He doesn't see the love she holds for him,
He doesn't know how much she's breaking from the inside,
He doesn't feel the ache of her scars-
Or see her lurking in the dark,

She only see's her struggles
She loves him more than anything in this world,
She feels hopeless like she's dead from the inside,
But what she doesn't know is, there's a light igniting at the end of the tunnel,
A guide against her fears.

Distorted heart -
Breaks and shatters a millionth,
Agonizing on the torment it had to bear,
Withered and terminating till its last,

Abdication has left me frail,
A void that now resides in the center of my heart, diffuses,
Penetrating torturous scars and bruises,
Aching from within,

Like a broken wing,
Or a leaf defoliating,
My heart slowly turns pitch black,
Ready to face extinction,

A wave of despair,
Constricting the walls of my veins,
A lumpy formation in the middle,
Not blood, just loss!

Speaking of sorrow,
Speaking of pain,
My heart aches constantly for you my dear,

I have experienced deceit,
People shatter me repeatedly,
A broken trust and a lonesome soul,

My unendurable scars,
My shallowness-
Sinks me in my own depth,

Speaking of sorrow,
Speaking of pain,
My heart aches constantly for you my dear.

Many times has it occurred to me that love was a mixture of happiness and haven. Where you feel so comfortable with your partner and savor the intensity and grandeur of it.
Many times have I erred, that falling in love with you would change my life completely. My imprudent heart so frail, surrendered fore you.
Now that it struck me hard, a broken heart is what you get from love. Either its caused by someone's demise or a broken promise. It takes you to the path where your demons that were once hidden, lurking in the shadow of your soul, capture you and pull you into abyss. Where only shattered memories and a scarred soul reside.

I constantly tell myself everyday before going to bed that I'll move on and that I'll stop thinking about you, but never has there been a day that I didn't shed tears. In everything that includes pictures, music, movies, books, my mind is compelled to reminisce about you.

The day I promised to love you solely and forever, the day you said you want forever with me, but that never really happened. You only left me shattered and heartbroken. My demons haunt me every night, my scars deepen and ache.

In this baffled state, sequestered and isolated, I keep my hopes alive that one day you will want me and accept that I am the one for you!

Seldom has it occurred to me that if I never loved you, my life would not be a mess as of now, where I'm already living on the edge of death. Externally I am alive but from the inside; broken and torn apart. I cry and wish to die. I wish that death finds me in the most darkest place and extracts my soul out. The pain and bruises already ache so much that now I don't even think taking away my soul harshly would even matter. I'm already so frail from the inside. Numb and scarred, yet I'm delighted that I experienced this pain and I now distant myself from anyone who tells me that they love me.
I may not move on, but I'll hope that you experience all I've been through once and know how bad it hurts.

The luminous cascading of light-
Penetrates through my soul,
The warmth of the radiance,
The glow within the pores of my skin,
Alights my heart and yearns for more,

Acknowledging the deprivation and the cold,
Stranded in a meadow shattered and alone,
My eyes shed poignancy,
And my heart remorse,
What you don't know is you're my shelter as a whole.