I've been deceived by many,
Devastated and aggravated to epitome,
But I have not once avenged any,
I silently suffered and embraced the pain,

It killed me a millionth time,
That I wanted to make them pay,
But I dissolved the abhor,
For hate can strengthen and my virtue might decay,

I could have played along,
Maybe adopt evil and hurt people,
But what was the worth,
Because I know I learned that revenge cannot do any good.

When I was two years old
The sun was just ball of fire that in the sky rolled
The full moon was a round stone in the dark sky
I knew mum and dad would never say bye
The kindergarten teacher taught kids were bought
Many of our favorite heroes were mostly cops
Every guy behind bars was a dangerous criminal
And what the minister stood for was biblical
All who went to church had no stain
Friends would never cause us pain
We enjoyed playing with dirt
Many times fell from tree and were hurt
We knew our leaders would bring peace
And our childhood fancies would never cease

Today with radiance I turned twenty and two
Our nearest star was full of radiance too
The spring night was lit with moon rays
Mom and dad could not agree so they parted ways
My friend had a baby girl with his bride
And our cops executed law according to tribe
The civil right activist was wrongfully convicted
The ministers no longer care for those afflicted
My pagan neighbor and parishioners are all the same
And for my latest pains my friends are mostly to blame
The doctor said dirt was the cause of my diseases
And I had to avoid it to reduce my medical fees
Our politicians masterminded our newest wars
And adulthood came early with too many chores

Once a baby,
Now no more,
Oh how wonderful were those days,
No pressure, no hurt,

Now its so hard to cope with people,
To deal with life and make new friends,
It scares me at times,
As I lurk in the darkest places at night,

I seek for life to entice me,
For friends to suffice and complete me,
But all I ever get is betrayed,
No one there stays in the end,

Once when we were kids,
I remember we'd make paper planes,
And wait for the recess bell to be heard,
So we could play together in unison,

Once when girls and boys weren't discriminated,
When we'd all sit together and talk,
Play games all the time,
And be cooperative and nice,

Once a baby,
Now no more,
Oh how wonderful were those days,
No pressure, no hurt.

When I die I know you won't miss me,
When the wind blows my soul away-
I know that even then you won't think of me,

You'll forget how I was to you,
You'll be so indulged in your life-
That you'll forget that one person who came to your life and tried to love you,

When the clock to your life stops,
When you'll be going away-
I know that even then you won't think of me,

You'll forget all my messages,
You'll forget how in love I was with you-
That you'll only demand for someone else in your afterlife,

When you breathe your last breath,
When in pain no one is around to see your struggle and hold your hand to calm you-
I know that even then you wont think of me.

Mainay kal apnay aapko dekha tha apni ammi ankhon may
Yeh aina mujhay boorha nahi batata
(The above language is a mixture of Urdu and Hindi.)

English Translation

I saw myself in my mother's eyes yesterday
And those mirrors don't say that i'm old