I let them watch my spiral from an angel to a *******
I let them talk ****, now I’m immune to it
First you love that I’m depressed, then you’re mad I’m living life
You think a dehydrated man wouldn’t chug on water, like?
I let them watch my spiral
I let them watch my climb
I let them watch me cry
Now I let them watch me live my life

I wanna be there for you
Wear something shiny for you
Be there at 7 regardless of the season and not disappear like Golden Gate.
I wanna give you everything
but I have nothing to give
Except say “I love you so much” and if I could I’ll give you golden
rings to remind you we’re married and that I won’t fade like Golden
and Bay.

I remember what we did
in the city by the bay
We walked through Chinatown
to a jewelry store off Clay Street
Two blocks away from Hilton
I bought a beer opener with the bridge
that we cruised under when the fog was thick
I could see the golden pillars
I could see your smile unfolding
And since then I didn’t wanna see it fade like Bay or Golden.

Baby figured I was sore so he poured me a bubblebath
Brought a Bluetooth speaker and played my favorite track
Said I had to soar
To feel the clouds under my feet
Said I needed to spread my wings
If I dreamed of breaking out of here

Baby realized I was scared so he pulled the sun right up
Made it bright as day and blew away the caliginous clouds
Gave me a fair start
So I could fly where my eyes can’t see
Gave me a relevant reason to stay
And that was breaking out of here

So I flew
And I flew
Till I was sore
I looked behind
I’ve ran away
And we were happier than ever since

I wanna wake up to the sound of ice clinking in a glass of wine
thinking:
**** me for falling asleep so soon.
I wanna hold you as the moon
creeps outside the window
leaps over flamingos
and swimming pools that wash off dunes.

I wish I had bought you something cute on Rodeo Drive
but you’re the rich one
I’m your sugar baby for life.

I was waiting for the walking green at the time
thinking:
I don’t wanna wear you off like a typhoon.
On our honeymoon
we stopped by Dayton Way
I asked my heart some questions
And then I found the way.

I like to smell bellflowers in Bellflower, California.
I love the hilltops over Glendale and Mount Hollywood Drive.
Like myself I love them.
I fantasize about highways and neck kisses in the night
Being driven blindfolded to a spot in Griffith Park
Get me out and lead me wherever you want

I dream a bunch of airplanes, but this isn’t JFK
But I don’t dream of oceans nor the ones who tried to drown me screaming help
You brought me to a different beach and as I came out all sandy
I showered it off in the motel and had you on top with your chain dangling
But when I killed the light
I didn’t dream of anything bad.
I didn’t hear waves rolling in my subconsciousness or feel the smoothness of my hands
I felt lucky that this happened to me
not necessary happy, but if I grow to cherish roadtrips like this, we’ll go again and I’ll end up laughing on our way home.
Listen to my favorite record
or a song stuck in your head.

For now I’m lying face up thinking
before I find happiness I gotta embrace my sadness.
Like she did.

[Part 1] Sequoia

My favorite drugs are sequoias from King’s Canyon and your smile
I need them more than coffee
Need you to stand beside me like General Grant and cast some shade on my face
because this heat is killing me.
I pursue something pure
like water in the wild.
My love, it lives enduringly
like sequoias in national parks.

[Part 2] Yosemite

Over and over I wished to be free
like a doe running freely through Yosemite
be fearful of fires
walk my own trail
take in the quiet
nobody’s wail.
I’m loving the falls
I’m loving the streams
Outdoors, without walls
Alone I can dream
I’m loving the monoliths
I’m loving the air
Only feeling that’s sheer
is me being free.

Now I have a 100 things to do when I wake up without the blues.
Got a 100 reasons to bleed knowing a 100 ways to heal my wounds.
I dream for the two of us - it’s as far as I can see.
I never stray away.
Dream of shorelines in my sleep.
Bathe in them when lights come by
Never savor our time, since it’s all I’ll ever have.
I don’t stare into your eyes, since they’re all I’ll ever see.
Now I have a 100 reasons to look into your green eyes when I wake up without the blues.