love is like
a cloud - its soft
and its nice
until it feels so heavy
that everything spills
out out out
and i dont want that to happen
with you.

I miss my ex sometimes,
and while I'm sitting on my phone feeling sorry,
feeling bad,
I drink from a bottle of concentrated drink mix,
and I find out
he's become
a SoundCloud rapper,
what a remix.

how does a man decide to do such horrible things to me?
his parents are good people,
his friends are all kind,
I am such a nice girl,
and still he defiles me.
destroys me.
how silly.
how silly silly silly.
like a joke.
told over.
and over.
the punchline is no good.
but you laugh anyway.

For a while,
happiness was an issue
I ignored.

For a while, I laid in bed
Fell asleep in the morning,
woke in the evening,
and days became seconds,
and my summer was gone.

Winter has been going by
in such record time,
that these days I don't even bother checking my watch.