Your body speaks a language
I yearn to learn, so we can speak
To each other, in ways that make you weak

With beauty so radiant --
        To touch her flesh, is to feel fire;
         Like brushing your hand against an open flame.
         Her body heat penetrating your body,  arousing your spirit,
         scorching your soul, melting your entire frame.
From her flame.

Glass after glass
She writes without her mask
Vomits words on paper
She'll regret later

Bottle half empty
Her hands are sweaty
Bottle half full
She drinks another mouthful

She writes and writes
sleeps day and night
She reads and reads
lets her heart bleed

what she has written
is what is forbidden
she writes what she wants
expecting no response

Lost in desperation
She finds inspiration
drifting in the ocean
mind full of commotion

She continues to write
until her chest feels light
then lets her readers figure out
what she's talking about

Split the vein of heart
let all your beautiful colors spill
bleed your love
all over me...
blank canvas of clouds
bare your soul to me
paint my black and blue
pure and new

I will bloom for you
as only the soul touched
by light and beauty can

orange and pink and auburn
like flowers and autumn leaves and sunrise
every sunset
I will spend my moments
with you
in your garden
smelling your roses
daydreaming
in the morning of your eyes
in the night of your dreams
flying like stars
dancing like the wind
sturdy as a mountain

Ill wait for you
underneath a blanket of darkness
pale as the whitewashed moon
flask half empty
waiting to be filled
to drink you in
get drunk on you
be the one
your lips make love to
the lungs your breath settles into
the flesh you crawl beneath
to slumber in peace
the heart you escape into
whenever you are on the run from the world
your place of solitude and quiet
your shelter

*Chose me
and I promise to be
an ending
to all your unhappy endings
your happily ever after
your here and now
and thereafter in the hereafter
forever and always

EVERYTHING WAS UGLY AND NOTHING FELT RIGHT
AND THE BRUISES ON YOUR NECK SAID MORE THAN YOUR LIPS EVER COULD
GOD ****** YOUVE GOTTA BE KIND
AND STAY SOFT WHERE THE WORLD IS SO HARD, BABIES.
THAT'S ALL WE WERE JUST LITTLE BABIES
AND I STILL HAVENT FIGURED OUT WHAT LOVE FEELS LIKE OR IF I FELT IT
BUT GOD ******
I WISH I WAS KINDER
I WISH I WAS SOFTER
BUT I MADE EVERYTHING UGLY
AND EVERYTHING HURT
I DIDNT SEE YOUR EYES WHEN I TOLD YOU I STILL LOVED YOU
BUT OH MY GOD
I HAVE HURT YOU
I HAVE HURT YOU
AND I LOVED YOU
SO IT GOES.
SO IT GOES.
SO IT GOES.
A PART OF ME DIED WHEN YOU LEFT BUT
SO IT GOES.
I SHOULDVE BEEN CAREFUL OF WHAT I PRETENDED TO BE
BECAUSE I WAS NEVER STRONG
AND THEY TOLD ME NEVER TO LOOK BACK
BUT I WAS HUMAN SO I DID
GOD ****** I WISH I WAS KINDER
AND SOFTER
BUT WHEN THE WORLD ENDS AND I END
THE SADEST THINGS I COULD HAVE TOLD YOU IS
IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN-
SOFTER
KINDER
LOUDER
BUT I COULDNT BE KIND
I PRETENDED TO BE SOMETHING
SOMETHING I WASNT AND THATS THE TRUEST CRIME BUT
SO IT GOES.
BECAUSE NEXT TIME I WILL BE KIND,
I AM STILL JUST A BABY
BUT I WILL NO LONGER PRETEND.
I WANT EVERYTHING TO BE BEAUTIFUL AND NOTHING TO HURT
I DON'T WANT TO HURT ANYBODY ANYMORE
BECAUSE VONNEGUT SAID
"THERE IS ENOUGH LOVE IN THIS WORLD FOR EVERYBODY IF PEOPLE WILL JUST LOOK,"
AND I WANT TO BE THAT KINDNESS
I WANT TO BE THAT SOFTNESS
I WANT TO BE THAT LOVE.
GOD ******.
some day
everything will be beautiful and nothing will hurt.