And all I can do is think about you.
AlI can do is dream.
All of the calls, that I didn’t let through.
And all that I say, I don’t mean.

When I look at you,
You turn away.
Away to dream of yesterday,
Before you knew,
Darling,
Before you knew...

Eleven turns to midnight.
Midnight morphs into one,
One to two.

Two becomes 3, who is swallowed by 4.

If only my brain would shut up.

Blocking out the world,
Drowning the emptiness in my chest.

They think their words don't hurt her.

They think she'll always be there.

They do.

*And she won't.

I'm scared.
Terror, pure terror.
He knows.

He knows.

He knows how I feel about him.
How his smile is like magic,
How his laughter is like music.
He knows how I feel.

And the feelings aren't mutual.

At this very moment in time,
I'd be perfectly content and happy with disappearing.

****.

Gone.


But I can't.

I must face his funny glances.
I must quiet her flirty laughter.
Must mend my broken heart.

A breath of fresh air in a sea of fumes.
A burst of light in a world layered with darkness.
The hands at my throat are gone.
That choking,
That sinking,
The suffocation has ended.