you know the other day when
you were reading over my shoulder?
my fingers were cold holding down the page
but my face was warm
next to yours.
we even drew the gaze
of everyone in the room.
if i were someone else
i would have stared too.

I find a thought lies in my head,
It tells me how I am so in love with being alone.
So I took a different route to explore my own destiny.

Alright, alright fine.

I guess maybe I over reacted a little bit

I mean, I suppose it's not as though we were dating, just flirting

Flirting is a very different thing. No commitment.

It's not like you broke any promises

I guess that if I had thought that I had a chance with someone I had convinced myself I loved for a long time, I would probably have done the same thing

I'm still ****** of course, don't get me wrong

I still want to hurt you

I still hate you with every ounce of my being

I still have reason to blame you

Don't get me wrong on that.

I still blame you, and have every right to

However,

I suppose

Maybe

I don't loathe you anymore

I guess I have re-examined and a lot of it was in my head

I made up a lot and mistook lots of what you said

I'm not saying I don't believe I had every right to react negatively

But I guess I'll admit, I overreacted.

Alright?

But you still hurt me.

Even if you didn't mean to.

And I have developed a bit of a plan.

Careful.

In those moments,
those moments are the ones that
I love.

You
Know what I'm talking about.

When you hold me close and
I hold you closer,
Until we get to the place where
You and I are as close as we can be.
As close are we are able
And it feels beautiful.
Even though, I swear to God;
We are more
Than
Words
Can
Describe.

In those moments,
I feel the weight of saying goodbye but it makes me appreciate you
So much more.
Those moments are the ones that
I love.

You
Know what I'm talking about.

A child like wonder is needed
In this funeral affair

There should be
a bechdel test
for poetry and
poets

It should
consist of
at least two
voices: one
of the self or
some other and
any other
thing
besides a
man