Slipping away
Or never really mine in the first place.
I can make plans.
I could.

Look at this!
Watch me flail for attention
With the grace of a beached whale!

More free time,
But it'll cost me.
And I've got no limbs left to spare.

My innards become outtards
As you twist my flesh between greedy fingers.
I'm a distraction.

I'm always here
When your plans fall through.
Our plans always fall through
When you come across something better.

I know we can mesh,
But at the moment all I feel is distress.
I want my boyfriend.
I miss the infinite bliss.

I won't speak out of term
This pain sealed within I will hide
Just to make you happy, just to keep the peace

I will not show weakness
These tears  I shed, I'll hide from the world
This I do to show you strength, to appease you

I will not rebel
This poet and artist will remain to the shadows, dormant from all
Just to not catch your sinister eyes
Just to not be hated

I will not be happy
This homosexual will remain dead
Just to not cease to exist
Just to be noticed

This life I will not cherish
I'll seal the casket to fall asleep
Just to escape the searing pain that you give
Just to at atast, obtain peace