The fire struck and burned away the feelings
the crowd gathering outside
holding their loved ones a little closer

The tears run down, not even touching the flames that engulf me
smoke entering my lungs suffocating me from the inside out
strength growing in my legs

I tried everything I could.
However i just caused the fire to grow
Breathing and leashing hurt on everyone it touches

Im done trying
Im done pushing through the flames to just burn
I stop my tears

I let the flames take me away
Destroying what was once in my heart
Flickering through my soul

You have to give in to get out.
You have to let the fear engulf you
So that you can indeed grow

sometimes things are just meant to stay broken, un repaired. gathering dust on past memories, but never truly forgetting, only living without.

new things taking space of old thoughts. transforming into something just as beautiful but not as rewarding as it was the first time.

leaving them behind for they arent what they used to be
shattered and indifferent to the sounds of intertwined heart beats.

something that once fit perfectly. now to many sizes to small.
set off to the side for anew.

Goodbye. I loved you.

Im sinking.
Sinking into a loveless stupor.
Of actions not matching to the words he says.

Im crashing.
Crashing head on into statuesque stubbornness
He stands there as I beg for the pain in my chest to subside

Im exploding.
Exploding with tears of summer romance
dying in the cold of winter.

I wont be able to stand any longer
I wont be able to breathe any longer
I wont be here any longer

not without you.

Today I lost
against this battle.
Leaving myself wounded without armor.

An arrow shot to the heart.
Salvation in one blow.
Fired by the one I love.

As my blood runs cold
into the mossy lands.
I feel nothing but sorrow.

Sorrow that you have caused
my heart this amount of pain.
Yet more so that I will no long be alive with you

As I take my final gasps of air,
you bow your head close to mine.
I spend my last breath kissing those lips.

My heart is so far from being repaired
it aches for your love
and it longs to be healed

My heart races and my thoughts pound
to the young lovers that we once were
tears dropping to the ground whispering our story

Im lying on the cold shower floor again
my tears blending into the luke warm water falling on me
my body shaking with emotions

I feel so lost again
Lost in my feelings towards you
lost in my body turning on me

I dont know what my heart should feel
I dont know what my mind should think
I dont know what I want.

why do i long for something so wrong
it was good for awhile
and then it was poison

the poison that seeped into my veins
and went to my heart
my heart slowly decomposing

This chess game of emotions
trying to capture the queen for entrapment
torturing her with loveless re matches

i trusted you
to do no harm but good
to love me and only me

you wondered away with lusting
your love wondered
and left me behind

my eyes swell with salt filled memories
memories of love and pain
combined into toxicity

my love wasted
me wanting him like
some strung out addict

pathetic feelings strike my heart
wanting to do anything to get my fix
anything to hear his voice

to do whatever it takes to find out what hes doing
who he is with
and if he is thinking of me

My heart died the day i found out about her
how easily i could be forgotten
how easily it was all over for him

how could love this strong be dead
how could first time lovers we wasted
how could this happen

a flash from summer love to winter kisses
separated for a lovers quarrel  duration
to the fighters and yellers

our love didnt remain perfect
but it doesnt mean i didnt love it
doesnt mean i dont miss it