The world is so loud,
yet
peaceful
with all the sounds
compounding into one.

Why must
we take away the sounds of nature,
of danger,
of love,
and leave in it's place
the sound of destruction,
of hate.

And while i'm on the topic
of sound,
why has it always haunted me so,
the sound of
silence?
what is it about this soundless noise
that fills me with dread?
Maybe it's that
silence equals
death,
which I refuse to give into.

Maybe it's the fear of going deaf,
and never hearing the sweet sounds of birds in the morning when I awaken,
or the music that drives me,
that makes me live.

Star light, star bright,
bring me my love tonight.
For we could watch the midnight sky
and pretend nothing else matters,
but our love,
and the cool air.
I want to grow old with you and
spend every
waking
moment
in your arms.
They can say what they will,
and lord knows they'll say the worst,
but our love will push us through it.
Star light, star bright
Bring me my love tonight.

Blackness
surrounds you,
with every waking step.
I am there
watching you
from the shadows,
I have no form,
no presence,
yet
I'm still behind you
waiting
for
one
small
mistake
*goodbye~

Let's trip on acid
And drink bleach till we choke and die.
For my soul needs to be free,
This broken body is starting to fall apart
at the seams.
We'll drink the night away,
till all our blood is poison
and we pass away in our sleep.
Let us explore the universe,
explore our conscious
unless
the world ends
the moment my soul is free.
Free from the torture,
the anguish.
I'll drink up to my neck,
and soon
I'll be unchained.

You make my heart flutter,
You make my soul sing.
I'm always so happy
to see you;
To feel your warm arms
wrapped around me.
Yet,
it is
precisely
these feelings
that I
shouldn't,
Couldn't
give into.
Since he is yours,
I am nothing,
deserve nothing,
just a sliver of wood
from a board
that's been rotting
ever since
the first time
I saw you.
I cling
to these comforting thoughts
that manage
to drive me ******* crazy.
Why am I like this?
What's wrong with me?
You make my heart flutter,
my soul sing.
But this feeling rips me to shreds.

Tonight
As I sit
staring
at my computer screen,
reflecting on life.
Memories whirl
through my mind;
the things I wish
I had done,
the things
I wish I
had said,
or not
said or done.
One thing becomes
abundantly
clear:
*I hate myself.

I've ****** up,
friends of mine
no longer close.

I've ****** up,
Got through high school
uptight
drunk off my ego
of a man who
thought he was better
that all the rest.

I've ****** up,
old love potentials
no longer close
to me, but
instead thrown away,
never to feel their lust again.

I've ****** up,
help me find
a way out
of this *******
I've dug myself into.