I don't see the sunset with the pink and purple hues blending together like cake batter before you lick the spoon I see castles millions of them spread out so far stars in the galaxy would be jealous of the distance ... distance yes distance something we need more of.. something I need more of... I am not some deep sea mermaid you can just use when ever you please or show me off like a trophy on your tv stand. I am more. So much more. Give me a chance to sink even if you know I can't swim. Please.

Tears roll from every corner
Crashing into eachother
Someone switched on
Irrational thinking
Try to remind yourself
Yesterday is gone

as time speeds up
the world slows down

as the world slows down
the people lose hope

when the people lose hope
the music goes quiet

the curtains close
the doves stop flying

the world isnt sleeping
the world is dying.

If you could
Hold onto love you would squeeze it
Suffocate it
'til it's capillaries are bursting
Pretty blues and purples would rise
Coating the reds and oranges that we're used to
Ud grab it by the neck carelessly
Sink your teeth into it
With no second thoughts
Your heart would be racing
And the passion
spot on
Legs vibrating from excitement
' not wrong !
Not wrong until the birds stop their song
And the bees stop their buzzing
The silence grows long
And the love is just gone

When people talk does it hurt you too? The stares the glares the smirks the curses cross your heart and stick a needle in your eye not your arm although sometimes blood is beautiful like a river until its running down your legs and you can't seem to stop it

Please stop it
(To be continued..)

Grief stricken
quickly quickened
when I realize you
watching me
from where ever you are,
I still hurt
no word,
no thought,
no reason why,
but I've realized
that
in my eye
I have given
all I could
to try.

The trees cast shadows
Like the dark ones
Chain-linked
to our
Hearts

off the walk of earth
I realized that
nick any negativity right in the ****

eat expectations for dinner,
gnaw on them like chicken bones,
remind yourself that life is probably going to be a chicken race
your head may fall off from time to time
but really
just enjoy the ride
enjoy the head on the grown
smile when your meant to frown
cry when your meant to be happy
sleep when you should be awoken
just be you
and be happy that you are you
and not anyone elses'
misconceived  view.

Music jolts my body
Senses are not senseless
used right.

Be the sun in someone else's darkness

I'm missing something
I'm not as sharp as you
As strong as you
As scared
Bruised
Beat
Broken
Brittle
I'm missing something
I can't fit a tiny object
Into a teeny tiny hole
I don't rehearse numbers in my head
Like you do
Instantly know right from wrong
And left from right
You do firm handshakes
While I ..
I shake
at the thought of
Investments
Investing time
Investing money
Investing love
Investing friendship
I live in solitude
And nobody seems to understand
I'm missing something
And I don't know what to do

The world isn't a battle field
There are no allies
There are bombs
Scars
Wounds
Tombs of the people we once loved
But the world isn't a field for battle

Writing blind would be difficult
But being blinded by writing is more difficult

I always fall asleep too early
I always wake back up too late

you are white walls
of an artist whom is lost
you are the colors to the ink
from a brush
that was hidden
you are the lost
we are the found
but you are too blind from darkness
to see the light of the sun.

i didnt mean to stick you in a room filled with strangers
no tv set
no friends
no family
just you
yourself
and nothing
so nurses could sedate you
torture you
take away what little sanity
you might hold onto
your voice was shaky
scared sounding
id never seen you scared before
but today
even i felt scared for you
you used to be my rock
you used to carry the weight of the world
on your shoulders until one day
i started seeing how the world was always carrying the weight
of you
even i felt the pressure
i grew tired
like the wrinkles on your face
and the circles under your eyes
by the way you really need to sleep
i hope your sleeping now
i just hope you remember to live
when you wake

Driving in circles
Wind in my hair
Cars are minimal on the freeway
A step into freedom
from the high paced
car chase
we're accustomed to live

I always think drinking solves everything but the only thing solved is realizing that everybody is always drinking with others to have fun and I'm always drinking alone to ....
Exist.
Escape.
Erase.
Arouse.
Unwind.
But it never works.
It.
N   E
  V
    E
R
Works.

On good days it's easy to feel like you are on top of the world
But
On good days bad emotions can still slide in
Like anger or fear
Keeping them at bay is a skill for the wise
Which is not yet me I don't think

Write in third person
Like lifes a game
Jokes on you friend
there's only
You to blame

she was the type of person
youd want in your bedroom
the type youd push
against the bedframe
if shed only give you half a chance

the one you wouldnt take to a family dinner
(or for granted)
one **** up
and shed be gone
but
she was never a princess
she was always queen
cause why be depend
when you could dominate
get everything you need
(on a silver platter)
she was the one with the dark side
but could tickle the sun
if need be
the one with the heart of gold
but a twisted mind
the one that could eat you alive
and spit you out for breakfast
shes the one
with the piercing green eyes
the ones that make cats jealous
(and horn dogs)
the ones that leaves danced for
the ones that made snakes wishing they had her
the ones you wished you could settle
but that would only cause trouble

tehehehehehehehe


A humble man once said
"Hahaha"
And expected
Rebirth

A man, in a humble,
Said,
"Once you hahaha,
You have been reborn".

I'm forgetting words
I stumble and Stutter and shout and lash out at the very people that love me
(Why do they love me?)
Is it because they have to
Society makes them

Emotions are fluid
Time is fluid
Life is fluid
So basically
We are gel filled donuts
And I doughnut
Know
Who wouldn't
Like
Some dough
At the cost of being
A bit nutty ?

i like being the victim
but i love being the villain.

pitter patter
lather lather
im as mad
as you
mr hatter.

I printed off 4 work books of homework
But all the numbers seem to string up wonders in pearls of if maybe I'm just not fit for this world ?

No dying
You are important
Even when you feel
Unimportant

peter
piper
picked

I wish I was someone else
But I'd feel bad wishing somebody would have to be me

Don't read,
Too much,
into what,
you've heard,
It might leave
You with
A bitter
Taste.

. .
. . .
. .. . . . . . .
t..
...e.
.h.e.
e.hehehe

i stopped writing
when i realized the world stopped reading
i stopped singing
when the world stopped listening
i stopped living
when the world offered me
dead beings
slobs
addicts
worthless
a-holed
throw me in a hole
dig it so deep that
it could fit me you and your dog
before we both get old
too old to ****
too old to love
too old to reason
too old to stop and
feel the season change
the world painted full of flowers
the kind my mother put in my hair
on the day when love was born
little did she know
that love was never sworn
in
it didnt last
it never lasts.

The mirror in you
Shines hope in me
But only when you
Acknowledge
What you were blind
To see

her words can tickle your ears
her words tickle more of you than you wish you'd hear
but tell me this
without a twist

what have you told her?

We are flesh-eating zombies living on plagued planets

The world would be so boring
If everything worked out perfectly
And sometimes
Things seem to happen
For a reason
Outside of your belief
But if you can discover it
That once red flag
Becomes a blessing
Not all help is clear
Concrete
Or direct
Sometimes the mirror effect
Just works

A friend once asked me why I didn't use an agenda
My response
Agendas are like quicksand
And timing isn't concrete

Monsters are scary in dreams
And nightmares
But you wanna know a secret
I learnt that monsters look mighty cute
Wearing underwear

At some point you will learn:
Sorry this person can no longer be reached

Only the best survive
Was a tattoo I read on somebody
And I realized that
Surviving isn't an outside source
Survival comes from within

I'm trying to believe
In so many different ways
Some messed up
Some straight up
But all I know is
Your what will always be your what
Hold onto that
Curiosity is innocence
And innocence is
Learning injustice
But don't forget that
Injustice
Is one sided
Single viewed
Yet still
Something brand new

Comparing kills creativity but creation triumphs tv!

.. One makes smiles for the self
While one paints false smiles on somebody else!

My explanation of manipulation
Is simple
Cross the I and dot your tea

Hungry for an escape?
Her eyes
Always make them chase

Dreams can be so strange
And downright silly
We were cooking delicious spaghetti sauce
From the cheapest tomato paste you can find on the shelf
And I think the floor looked pretty snazzy in red
Slip sliding through the spillage
We were doing the real pre salsa
And then I blinked
And it was over

Things don't just mend themselves immediately
But with the right persistence
Trial can become success
With
Some persistence

even in the most powerless of times
you have power
to either keep walking
or to walk
right away

A tone of someone's voice can speak volumes
But even tones can be changed
With tender, genuine , care!