Maybe some credit
Is far due
In saying
For I've ticked and tocked
And had people walk all over me

I'm still living proof
That I'm not just a goof
I probably can't do maths
My hands shake in class

I talk pretty big
my size is a twig

But understand this

If I go

You'll have zilch.

I wish I was someone else
But I'd feel bad wishing somebody would have to be me

Tears roll from every corner
Crashing into eachother
Someone switched on
Irrational thinking
Try to remind yourself
Yesterday is gone

I better not crash someone else's car
Or ruin someone else's life
Balance they say
It a learning curve they say
Wiggle your nose
While rubbing your tummy
Im tired of being tired
Of never being good enough
Never pretty enough
Or funny enough
I stutter
Stumble
Bump into stuff
It's a curve now they say
But it's not a learned one

I'm forgetting words
I stumble and Stutter and shout and lash out at the very people that love me
(Why do they love me?)
Is it because they have to
Society makes them

Is that why we feel the rains
stronger
When we're upset
Do the trees have conversations with the wind about the nature of life
We're always pointing fingers
Blaming eachother
For our problems
Instead of looking inside
All the buildings and highrises
The wealth the money and technology
Blinding us
Stealing our lenses
Replacing our views with creeds
And wants
I don't try to fit into anyone's box
Anymore
If I don't fits I don't sits
And quite honestly
I'm ok with that

roll the dice love
i just want to lose your love tonight
insult
complimate
compliment
complimate
comply
compromise­
compterize
contemperize
close the door
and dont forget what i told ya
shoulder
heres the door
you want more
i dont wanna lose
Control