I miss you mom
Tough love is difficult in a world of what ifs and why's
Sometimes I waste my energy
Thinking up horrible things that could happen to you
I know nothing lasts forever
But growing up is scary
Especially doing it alone
The stars don't sparkle like they used to
The jet black sky is fading
I want to sleep
I'm tired
But I'm also really scared
What if I wake and you are gone
What if I close my eyes and 10 years pass by
I don't understand fear
But I know I need you here

Cancer is cruel

Lost
Lifted
Loopy
Limping
Literally
Lethal
Licked
Luxury

I'm bad at lying
Please don't lie to me

Writing blind would be difficult
But being blinded by writing is more difficult

Driving in circles
Wind in my hair
Cars are minimal on the freeway
A step into freedom
from the high paced
car chase
we're accustomed to live

I'm missing something
I'm not as sharp as you
As strong as you
As scared
Bruised
Beat
Broken
Brittle
I'm missing something
I can't fit a tiny object
Into a teeny tiny hole
I don't rehearse numbers in my head
Like you do
Instantly know right from wrong
And left from right
You do firm handshakes
While I ..
I shake
at the thought of
Investments
Investing time
Investing money
Investing love
Investing friendship
I live in solitude
And nobody seems to understand
I'm missing something
And I don't know what to do