Baby it's so cold,
And I just hope you're warm.
When the snow falls just know,
I'm not alright.

I say I'm fine and no,
I don't want to talk about it.
Can this cigarette just,
Flood cancer through my cells.

I'm living a waking nightmare,
And I can't seem to wake.
I pray to God. Please,
My soul is yours to take.

Take these memories from me,
Throw them way out to sea.
Kiss my lips and let me sleep,
For all eternity.

I won't be calling,
I swear I won't write.
I promise I'm falling,
Into eternal sleep tonight.

Whisper your lies in my ear,
Tell me you love me on last time.
Hold me tightly and promise,
You'll always be mine.

Your velvet words fill my dreams,
With a longing of your touch.
Your words ring circles in my ears,
Now I love you far too much.

My mouth waters when I think of you,
My tongue is blanketed with the taste of mud.
I bite my lip to **** the taste,
And coat my mouth in blood.

Couldn't we just leave things the way they were,
I just want you coursing through my veins,
But no one understands My ******* thirst,
For such enlightening pains.

I pray to God,
That if I died right now,
The devil wouldn't find me,
Until I'm on holy ground.

I pray I'd pass,
Through those pearly gates,
Before they realize,
They made a horrid mistake.

I hope they won't,
Smell all of my sin on me,
That there's an error in the books,
And they just let me be.

Maybe I'd see your face,
And hold you for a while,
Before they learn that,
I am the worst of liars.

Maybe I'll have a few moments,
Where we are one again,
Before I face an eternity,
Of pain and suffering.

Still my beating heart this time,
Stop my breath before I speak.
My eyes are growing heavy,
My knees have gone weak.

Close your fist around my throat,
Cease the flow of blood to my brain.
Your presence drove me crazy,
But your absence made me insane.

I cannot sleep in the dark of night,
Whenever I rest my weary head.
My mind stays fixated on,
Those last words that she said.

Someone please send me a prayer,
That it will all end tonight.
I pray to god for a car crash,
That may bring darkness to the light.

That last shot,
Of whiskey,
Filled my tongue,
With the taste of you.

I stopped drinking,
Long before the thought,
Of suicide,
Filled my head.

I stopped drinking,
When images of us,
Started to creep,
Into my veins.

Darling can't you tell,
I haven't slept too well,
Since last I held,
My beautiful girl.

I'd sell my very soul,
To call you mine again.
It's been so long since I've cried,
But I'm not sure I can hold back next time.

I stopped drinking,
When the whiskey began,
To taste like you,
And the *** began to taste the same.

I deleted all our photographs,
Left nothing in my wake,
But as I clicked delete all,
I swear I thought that I would break.

Five short years,
Gone in the blink of an eye,
I swear I'd sell my soul,
To never have had to say goodbye.

I miss your kiss,
And your touch,
I miss hearing I love you,
Far too much.

I wish I could find a needle,
To replace the void you left in me,
But they'd cart me away again,
And I'd be left so empty.

I wish there could be a little ******,
To ease the pain of our demise,
I wish I could hold you softly,
As I whisper my goodbyes.

Would it be a sin,
If I used just a little too much?
Could I enter Heaven,
If I **** myself tonight?