We could sit around,
Like any Friday night,
Making empty promises,
Of staying around this time.

But I stopped drinking,
When the scotch started,
To taste like you.

But you were so seductive,
When you touched your lip to mine,
And asked me if I wanted,
One more drink before the war.

So I started drinking,
And I tasted you on my skin,
While you held me tightly,
And slowly let me in.

I bounced around your rib cage,
And you held tightly to my heart.
I must have said the wrong things,
Because soon you were gone.

I should have stopped drinking,
Long before the scotch,
Began to taste like you.

But you were so insistent,
And you know I can't deny,
Any of your pleasures,
On any Friday night.

The only words I hear,
Before I drift off to sleep,
In your whispered voice,
I love you.

The only comfort I feel,
As I rise with the sun,
The feeling of your arms,
Around me.

The only thing I taste,
Before I leave the house,
Smothers my tongue,
With your kiss.

The only memories I have,
Are filled with good old times.
Now I'm lost in this thing called life,
With you not by my side.

I watched the sun rise,
Without you.
I fell asleep,
In an empty bed.

Holy Father forgive me,
For I am soon to sin.
I close my eyes,
And let the darkness in.

My demons speak in whispers,
They hunger for so much blood.
They chatter along softly,
Whispering words I never understood.

They sit upon my shoulders,
Now there's no angel there.
They speak in dark parables,
And whisper darkness in my ear.

I found his bedroom door shut,
And quickly made my way in,
My demons led the way out,
Mere moments after my most mortal sin.

His blood feeds my demons,
And covers me from head to toe.
I feel the darkness closing in on me,
Closing in so slow.

Holy Father forgive my sins,
And cleanse this darkened soul,
For I may never enter the gates of Heaven,
With these blood soaked clothes.

Can I stay in this moment,
Forever frozen in time,
Lost in the fantasy,
That you're still mine.

I'm sorry my darling,
I'm trying so hard not to cry,
As your arms wrap around me,
In the freezing cold night.

My fingers are grasping,
At the jacket on your back.
Your body is warm as you press into me,
And I whisper those words, oh I am so sorry.

We part after a moment,
And the seconds are gone,
Oh how I wish I could stay in your embrace,
Right where I belong.

Father, how do I begin,
To detail my life of sin.
How do I express my sorrow,
For atrocities I've committed.

I've stolen from my loved ones,
And took away her heart,
I've committed sins most grievous,
And I don't know where to start.

I was deeply entrenched in adultery,
With a powerful chemical love,
And I doubt a few hail Marys,
Will bring me forgiveness from above.

Perhaps a few our fathers,
And a sacrifice of my soul,
May give me the peace I'm searching for,
And finally make me whole.

Oh father, how do I say,
I've got ****** on my mind,
But should I pursue my desires,
There'll be no saving me in time.

Oh father how might I repent,
For sins against those loved by me.
Oh father how do I reach forgiveness,
With only a few hail Marys?

I no longer look
When I cross the road.
I only close my eyes and pray
That maybe this will be the day.

I hope to hear the sound
Of screeching tires and breaks,
Before my body hits the windshield
And I am filled with pain.

I hope to hear the sirens
And the tinkling of glass,
When my body hits the ground
At long, long last.

I pray there is no heaven
And certainly no hell,
For either would be filled with memories
I certainly can live without.

I wish only for oblivion
A darkness so complete,
That it fills my heart with yearning
And teases my soul with defeat.

I no longer look before the crosswalk
For my time will come so soon,
And I never look to see if you're watching
Before I leave the room.