That love was
A broken symphony
A cracked melody
One with which
Not even we
Could compete

Love is a fairytale

My heart is a game

Emotions are complicated

And I'm to blame

Bury your every sin in my flesh
As I feel the rise and fall, the heaving of your chest

Etch your scarred memories into my skin
Learn to love the lust that forced you to give in

Let me put your self control to the test
And leave an impression with my moans and my breath

Let yourself let your morals bend
Ignore the fact that this high will have a bitter end

I hate it
I stayed for you
Can’t stand it
I prayed for you

Don’t get it
I covered for you
I hate it
I struggled for you

I hate it
I lied for you
******* it
I cried for you

I get so deep in this pit
I wanna stay here and sit
Wallow in self pity
Finally give up and just quit

Disappear for a bit

I have so much to say
But I’ll just bite my lip

Eyes closed, cheek on your chest

Those nights.. I truly sleep the best

I've noticed that,
otherwise,
I get no proper rest

i don't really care anymore
about anything
the anger has eroded my motivation
and life has taken a back seat
to my rest and recovery
because i'm still very broken
so at this point
my care and all my concern
has vanished, never to return

..Returned me to my religion..
..Helped clear up my vision..

Now I pray God damns our bad decisions

Is The Most Painful Realization You Can Come To

i see it
your sorrow

i feel it
your pain

i hate it
your anger

i'll take it
your hurt

i only want
you to smile

i only wish
you to laugh

i only hope
you are happy

i will always
love and adore you

Shaking hands
Losing my grip
on myself

I’ve been alone in contemplation

Exhausted
Placing petty smiles
up on a shelf

I’ve been diving into desperation

Bankrupt
Hopes with little wealth

Pointlessly searching
for inspiration

What will they think?
If I finally
Let
Myself
Sink

And will they know?
I was sunken
Long ago

You know I hate it-
Try as I might,
It seems useless-
A losing fight...

..to erase you from my thoughts
I need guidance - an emotional GPS
I'm hopelessly, tragically lost..

Pale - you numb me like snow
You're colder than the ice that used to sit in my soul
Frail - this must be sick with a cold
I think I see the devil, dear;
I thought you should know

And, as much as I hate it,
Try as  I might;
I can see it's useless-
A losing fight..

..letting go while holding on to Jack Frost
Lasts a lifetime and I need rest
This has all come at too high a cost..

Blame - neglect may be all that I know
Flaunt your fears; they make for a show
Creep - such a dreadful process must be slow
To find trophies in the scar tissue;
From the wounds, marvels may grow..

Still, I hate it-
Try as I might;
It's always been useless-
A losing fight..

..because you keep a place in my mind
And keep my chest filled with ice
Even after all this **** time..

I shocked them all when I spoke up
I was always the silent kid
The one who went along with whatever you wanted

But I opened my mouth and shut theirs
All these years I suffered the abuse and let them use me
Well, here I am, and I'm at the top now

My mind is loud but my voice is greater
They all stopped and stared when I said no
When I decided to take control

They stumbled and then they fought
But they lost and it cost their dignity
Their pride, I took it and put away the cowards

How unexpected it was when I shattered their perfection
When I brought about the end of their reign
When I woke up and spoke up

You know what gets to me the most?

That when I'm angry at you
Really, truly ****** at you
You always manage to do something
Something so sweet that
I can't stay mad at you
No matter how hard I try

Gosh...that gets to me..

I need help.
I feel hollow.
........
Is this how freedom is supposed to feel?

If I could do it all over again
I'd choose *you

Sing to me
I wanna know

Will you warm me when I’m cold?

Sing to me
Your soul is old
Your heart is gold

Sing to me
I gotta know

Will you love me when I’m old?

Sometimes it’s like I don’t even know you
And I can’t stand that I’m stuck inside you

Who are you?
Who am I?
I can’t breathe
I’m Drowning inside..