My gaze now fixed in newly born sadness

My hopes all set in an infinite melancholy

Your touch no longer pure and joyful

But now tinged with taint and regret

Your words no longer lively and renewing

But now shadowed by emptiness and shame

A love that was so refreshing

A relationship that had become my muse

Temporarily reduced to confusion and hidden pain

My own tears shed in the darkness

While I hide them for your sanity

This eats away at my stability

At this moment, us no longer holds tranquility

while we sat
and we waited
talking about nothing
too much to think about

                                                          ­         while we worried
                                                         ­          and we debated
                                                         ­          moving for nothing
                                                         ­          too tired to end our rest

it all fell apart
we watched
we felt but
we made no attempt to help

                                                           ­        our energy was gone
                                                            ­       we had determined we'd stay alone
                                                           ­        too exhausted from life
                                                            ­       to care that our world was falling

while we rode the tide
into oblivion
not changing course
or crying about anything

                                                       ­            while we felt our lives
                                                           ­        crumble before us
                                                              ­     not minding that it was over
                                                            ­       or seeking out refuge

we held hands
and shared one last kiss
for our love
was all we'd really miss

I am ruled by an addiction.
However, this addiction is not my own.
It is someone else's, someone who should be more important that anyone on this planet to me.
But, because of her addiction, is no more than a horrible burden that does nothing but bring tears and hatred.

Snort a little diction

Smoke a little rhythm

Inhale a little alliteration

Inject a little rhetoric


Let's All Get
Strung Out On
**Word Crack

No, I'm not ****
It's true, I'm not the coolest
But when it comes to love
I'll treat you the best

I want you and only you

I don't wanna leave you

Cuz I know for the rest of my whole life
I'm gonna need you

I'll need you to breathe

Like a breath of fresh air on a summer day

But I know that you've done gone
And you've strayed away

Why does it have to be so hard?

You've become my most important part

So I know if i should ever walk away
*I'll be leaving behind my heart

I want to save you
From all your pain
From all the shame

I want to take you
Away from the anger
Away from the wrong

I want to save you
So that maybe
You could save me

I Am
The voice
In your head

Telling you
It'd be better
If you
Were just Dead

It's 5:30 in the morning..
I haven't slept all night..
And all I want in the world..
Is to call you..
And hear you telling me..
How much you love me..

Kiss me
Please take me away from this pain
Turn back
Stay with me and help me breathe
Be mine
Save me from my own horrid life
I beg of you, Save me

you feel pain
and fear
the world is so cruel
no one really cares
well, except for me and you

you're alone in this
you say no one could understand
but remember
you have me
take my hand

we've both suffered loss
and we've both been through hell
here, i have the scars to prove it
and so do you
so why wouldn't i get it?

i understand your pain
though my situation was different
but still it hurt like crazy
and ripped me apart
just as this has done to you

when you cry
i cry just the same
your pain
becomes my own
i feel your every mood

your emotions reflect in me
your anger infects me
your happiness bathes me
your violation degrades me
and your living changes me

we're the same
in so many different ways
so know that i'm always here
you're never alone
so that may lessen your fear

i've given myself to you
so use my feelings if you have to
to feel joy and happiness
flooding through my love
you can find everything you need within me

me and you
you and me
we're like clones, copies
we're one and the same
you'll always have me

I've hardened to stone
I'm icy with little emotion shown
I'm afraid I'll only be known
Once my brains are scattered and blown

Innocence and naivety had me fooled
All matters not if that trigger is pulled
If I'm lifeless and, around me, my essence is pooled
And the heat of my flesh has gone and I've cooled
Until then, I struggle to be energized and fueled
Sensitivities were smothered as survival overruled
Thus, naivety no longer seems to have me fooled

Perhaps if my brains are scattered and blown
Then I may finally be known
For now, I'll be icy with no emotion shown
Because I've hardened to stone

You may not expect it
But I love it when you talk about drinking
When you smoke
I love that taste that lingers in your mouth

You may not expect it
But I love it when you scratch me
When you bite me
I want to scream out in pleasure

You may not expect it
But I love the things you do

Life hanging in the balance
Sanity hanging by a thread
I'll take my scissors
And cut that thread
Watch my reality crash
For a peaceful life, I never asked

A broken home
A shattered family
A drifting soul
I'm lost in the journey

The shifting
The changing
The non-balance
I'm focused on the solution

My answer
My resolution
My damnation
I'm just waiting on Fate

The panic sets in

As the count winds down
On those who’ll stick
Through thick and thin

They tell me that bloods thicker
But the waters my friend

Let them bang the gavel
Hang the noose
I’ve nothing left to defend

I'm glad you can't read my mind
I'm happy you can't see through me
Because if you could
You might just be through with me

And I felt the numbing heat
And it burned outrageously

So I walked out
And never returned

There weren't any words
For the things to be said

And we never looked back
We abandoned our hearts

I made a mistake.

Thank you for being my best friend
For letting me tell you anything
Even for the tenth time

Thank you for understanding me
With all my awkwardness
My anger and hatred

Thank you for encouraging me
Throughout every single thing
Even when you don't want to

That you for being you
Because, without you
I don't know what I'd do

She used to care
So **** much
Almost too much

She loved everything
More than herself
Than even life

And then he left
Said goodbye
She thought she'd died

And her world stopped
Vision blurred, and head hung
Knees weakened

It was then
That she gave up
She surrendered

It was then
That she stopped caring
She shut down

Your words are scarlet
Like the lips of a harlot

Your breath stings
Severing my wings

Your eyes are blazing
Leaving my soul dazing

Your pain and suffering
Has become my everything

I'd think myself a fool to tell you
But I'd be an idiot not to

I'll regret the words I'm about to speak
But it'd **** me not to

I'm going to give myself to you
With not a single string attached

So love me as well as I have loved you
And keep me as long as you want to

Sparks suspected to have caused this flame to be ignited
Put under pressure to hide it, conceal it, deny it
Insecurities and greed are the main culprits of all the violence
Curses foretold as warnings in the planets' alignment
Ignorance has been molded into an art or a science
If it isn't explicit, expect that they've securely implied it
So many sounds, go deaf and then drown in the silence
Invading homes and thoughts as though it was invited
Truth exposed is sneakily altered to disguise it
Misleading masses to control a majority's mindset
Freedom lost as they prevent attempts to revive it
Attempts to distract from the reality that existence is timeless
Peace of mind secured when tensions are excited
Crippling angels to prevent the liberty of flying
Heavily fueled by a cocktail of deciet mixed with spite
Significant events whispered as pointless wars are incited
Think of unity as a gryphon paralyzed and rendered flightless
Crowds convinced to be content when mindless
The search continues for those not mentally lifeless
What is considered humanity's finest
Authenticity has yet to be provided
It widens the gap that has us divided
The flame of those being blindly misguided
Runs the risk of roaring wildfires being ignited
No requests for your all, you've already supplied it
Made oblivious during the time of a crisis
Values labeled on treasures proven priceless
Privacy no longer permitted to be private
Eyes wide open yet views remain sightless
Individuality, a thing of which we may one day be reminded
Exterminations ordered of all those free and enlightened
Fortune concealed as the desperate all struggle to find it
Identities and dignity become commonly traded
If only they knew they were being violated
Unfortunately, their ignorance has been properly validated
After the ******, I wonder who lives to inaccurately explain it

No matter how hard I try
I won't ever forget you
I'll never let you go
I gave you my heart
You ripped it apart
You couldn't care less
I have honestly tried to release you
I've tried to forget
But you were my first love
My first truth
My first devotion
You cheated me
You ruined me
You traded me in for something newer
Someone better
And though I have found another
My own someone better
I'll still keep you within my mind
And you'll still haunt my heart