Messing with a saint
So I'm flying with no wings.
The other likes my gun
So I shoot him with a pic and I blow his brains.
Literally seriously clearly your pilling me like a orange.
I can't take it cause u come just to squeeze me and you know it.

I'm feeling used
I'm feeling new
How do I ***** something without even touching you ?

Why do they talk when they want to
I trust in God never trust in the issues cause I'm walking issue don't trust me I got  issues...

There's truth in lies,
But there's no lies in truth.

In time we will find,
That judgement will be the proof.

Too soon to cry when there's joy waiting on you.

One thing before time ends , you gotta find out what is truth.
Then you will see the lies the lies that are infront of you .

I place my tongue as medicine and my jaws as the truth but you feel as if it's wrong to ponder or say what's on your mind but threw time I see that you watch but you don't like you see but you can't even tell me the truth of what you feel threw the nastiness of Me with that said I know you're not gunna tell me what you feel about others or others telling what they feel about you and that scares me cause feeling that I've seen what you won't even tell me that's why I present my body and thoughts as my responsibility but I don't think it's working cause you still get mad at how you think I like then "why are you tell me?" If you ask me that question I would of told you what I'm writing 5 inches away from you but you don't care and that terrifies me

Try to hold time
Try to hold love
Try to take Joy
Try to open mud and fuze the water molecules with atoms so it won't float up.
Try to create you even the bad parts
When your mom died, or your sister cried or your Dad leaving the family cause he had somewhere else to go.
Try to ..
Try to prepare the heart.
Try to make the sky before the  stars
Try to keep smiling
Try to keep still
Try to be a son when you was in a womb
Try to be a water
Try to create a fog

Oooh I wanna see this
Try to be God.

I let my mind play.
My brains full
I feel numb before I fall .
I check my heart rate..
It's getting cold..
Lord knows
Hurry my love.
Show me something so I can stay,
And not go.
Okay it's been three days,
Sense we talked.
Where has mouth run to !
But it's okay I walk slow
For you to catch up and stop me or let me.

I come in peace so listen close
But I agree you’re young and full of hope.
The rain will sleep, the moon will float
The sun will come to let you know.

Don’t worry please just let it
go,
I saw you’re dreams and saw them grow.
School is just a fling like ***** soap,
Like  a marathon to a episode.



But if you leave You will never
What we can bring but it’s fading slow.
I’m a alien to these that call you home.


But In our planet we don’t **** one another
we don’t take Love for granted It’s a gift from the mother Land
In there planet they are filled with greed and false belief.
I came to bring you peace.

A million miles away and there's thoughts about you here.

I lost my clothes on pictures and found I'm clothed with lustful tears...

Streams of a ****** has hit the air,
And now my demon runs over my ambition like lights with a deer.

Talk about stuck between the rock and your hard place..
Now I'm questioning the four play over the Internet, we both stay where no one wants to lay.

A million miles away!!!

And suddenly I notice this is only fantasy?! Your my typical "deity" ...wait let me explain

My train has stopped and now I'm off line and seeing your no where near my wonderings.

Your not God but I made you a God what God can tell me I'm perfect? I'm looking unto him for a Job and the things I prayed about some point in time that I felt bound by a....

Guy...who took my lust.

Wow moment of clarity, I'm doing the same with you Ricky


I can't do this no more as you slowly stop texting me and I get off line and just walk away like you never knew me...
..how bout I don't text back to the first message you send me.

Are you okay?
Can you tell me what's wrong?
Will you give me a chance to talk?
Can I listen to your life story?
Do I bore you?
Will you ignore me?
What makes you cry?
What's so funny?
What is love to you?
Do you know what I mean?
Can I joke with you?
Are you laughing at me?
Can we be more then poets?
Would you talk to me?
What's wrong with me?
What about my face?
Can I hear your heart?
If I told you what mine say can we still be okay?
Will you give me a chance?
Tell me what you think..please
Last question is this
Do you know how much I love you?

Two Stories of Minorities

Growing up in the hood as a mexican
You learn your no good and your pedestrian
Now we have trump running for president
So now "a mexican will *** offend our women" and "they're all drug dealers that dont deserve to be residents"

Growing up in the Suburbs as a african
Martin Luther King speech was ran down like a pedestrian
Trampled over by those skin colors who chose the first black President
And a african will steal anything just keep family in mention, they're all low food stamp having Residents

We are hard workers, we helped build the country
We arent shady lurkers that ship drug loads filled with some tree
We had our grape boycott like the americans at boston with their tea
In reality we're no different from the white man, despite our cultures we are human completely

We are the anchor of alliance defining us would be passion of soul
The beat to another's code, we're not different from the white man, despite past offences
We all walked the trail of tears and picked cotton
Different languages came from the Tower of Babel the immigrants alike we fell from ourselves

It's hard to have a Good time,
When your hands cold, soar throat
And Your nose is running away slow....
But these sick days though

"Hey you good..?"

Tell me I got time.. To listen

Come home, you know I’m always awake.
But Ive been waiting for this so patient,
Feels good when you’re crush says “I’m waiting”
U got options and tonight I’m that
U Know, you got options H
Houston , U
Here you got options ...H
I know you got options bab
I can be your option every day..
Here you got options bab.

they sleeping on you
They sleeping on U
Don’t sleep on me
I won’t sleep on you..

My emotions are thick like syrup on butter pancakes
And the sweat of my brow will be your simplicity.
The third eye opens under the ***** burning …
As the smoke and I have *** under the moon light
Moon light…
Moon…light
My worries are lighter then the moon on clouds

I've been drugged for the last time,
And no I'm great.

I know I need to take a shower,
But I'm scared it will wash you away..

I can't hear my dreams cause I've been losing sleep.

Oh I should stayed after the fight,
And let time wash the pain.

I played my records so many times,
Till Silence is the best key.

When your world is crashing down
And your friend is sleep..
It's hard to keep it in,
When in your head all you thinkin about is do I have somewhere to sleep?

My hands hold my coldest thoughts,
....My heart is sinking in the sand
Still I try to pick myself  up!
All the pieces fall again...

Iets just be honest, im coming
I'm coming , I'm coming
Undone my beloved friend.

I'm blowing threw the wind my friend,
Forgive me for the years I did.
I'm tryna be a better man!
But when I do I fall again

Can I be honest, I'm coming
I'm coming I'm coming
With Perfect hands

You'll  pick me up when I'm  in sin,
I'll   dust you off from all your dirt.
Back together in my perfect hands!
Forever be your beloved friend.

I see my thoughts like the sea
I hear my heart is like the sky
Little waves sometimes come and it reflects off the sun how bright.

The clouds just rain because my mouth needs to cry.
It gets cold because the climate changes from what's wrong and what's right.
If the universe was in me..
Tell me why would I wanna stay on earth tonight?

Sleep to you is waking up
Sleep to me is death
Joy to me is seeing the day
Joy to you is well I don’t really know

Here lies the boy that knows everything but in reality…

He only knows where his feelings take him,
Wearing his heart boy his sleeve.
I’m such a tease
The only reason I write here is because no one is reading me like I’m reading me.

My mind is trying to convince me not to go
Think how much people that's not gunna come
What about  the door of integrity that lingers on some
Or the process of being One.
My skin is boiling what have I become?
Lesson learned don't give up on something that you need
Lesson learned don't give up on me

If you knew that young man would you dare to Love and lay with cause I know he likes to watch the stars and Gods steps.

Would you lose your mind for mine then hold my heart that's all I got for all these ups and downs I promise like to hear another's beating chest.

Nathan._713 I’m not no longer 281 …

Know the truth is written all over your face.
Circumstances bring you down on your knees
Go on and Cry a ocean and confide in it
And when he calls hide behind a smile that’s make believe.

Oo don’t lose your self esteem
You have done all that you can
Back up and Let him find out what a  broken heart means

So my grandma died
And I’m not even at home
I got kicked out by playing my right
My dad use to hit my mom so I fought him and put him inter hospital and now My mom says I went to far ….
Do she not remember 7 th grade when he was bouncing her hesd in the wall?
What about pushing her down the stairs?
Or that time of ripping her purse from her ?
What about the time he choked my sister?
Or slapped my other one.
But the fact that the worst thing he did was nothing at all
She kicked me out cause I went to far by putting him in the hospital cause he wanted to fight me.
I’m no longer seeing myself as the bad guy the bad guy is my mom she could of got a divorce like the several times bedded she told us as kids she was when we believed her…
I find it funny and peaceful that I’m staying on this couch rn at my friends that I got to leave in one piece instead of losing my mind

He's on my mind
My family ...well ...I don't know why but I think they tolerate me
And I have 18 year old despising me
Because the last time I had a life was better to them
When I was giving
When I was always doing what they wanted me to
The truth in my head is uhhh ...nevermind
I sort of don't even wanna ask Why
I miss my lover and he's one hour way tripping on my spin ....a.k.a
Who I was ....
No job
Yet I'm doing all I can to become some better then tonight
My sister bday and all I could afford was wine
I kinda like when I was away
They kinda like when I was there type
I wonder what you liked about me ...yea... I wonder

I usually take another but my pockets really quiet.
Ain’t nothing like those first pills that hold you threw the silence.
It’s okay your secret is safe with me
I mean what’s the worst you can be

I’m on a boat but there’s no water
I can hear what sounds like thunder but there’s no matter
Are my eyes playing tricks on me ?
Have my mind become mad?
I watch for the clouds but there’s not a one insight,
The sense of sudden doom in my sweat
The urgency within my bones to get it right
Laying on my bed tonight
I can’t deny the fact that ...there’s something that keeps hitting my head and making think all night I can’t see it yet but I just sense it ...that things are not alright...
But I’m getting tired I’m sleep and rest maybe that’s what I need hmm ...night

Okay I can do this.
Okay I can make better peom then the last
When all I want to talk about
Is ….
Holding you or making memories between countries flask
As were drunk off seeing different cities and states
I would wake you up with pancakes from Albuquerque.
Somewhere in the sand of time where hidden trails would engulf us…
And sense I know you love the beach I would stay for a while in the water just to see your smile.
Okay I can do this
Okay I can make a better poem if you ever read this

You can say I’m not enough
Smoking **** wont get me high to talk to God...
Tell me why my brother playing with the law,
He said he’s scared of them coming without a gun.
Tell me why my ex is texting me still?
It’s like I still love you but it’s a cheap thrill.
And now your momma hates me cause I’m real.
It’s like friends they hate me cause I’m real
It’s like my family trying to take pills
But knowing one day my dad and mom be gone like a cheap thrill

Six six six do you really need the sense to understand that cents been buying time since we were little kids ?
See how that was a circle of existence
And ohhh elephants there in the room!
But this ...
All this is not making sense cause to be honest
Since you been gone nothing has
Nothing been making any type of sense and no matter how much cents I have in my pocket
It can’t bring me peace or happiness
Or better yet you

The feeling of having someone for 5 months now is unsettling
It’s like heaven and hell because now you invested in them and you don’t want them to leave
So I hope you see me like I see you,
It’s better when they put there arms around you
i guess that what I need
We don’t live under the same roof yet so I guess I’m becoming a feen
I want to see us do it I want to see us succeed
Even threw bad times or where the water come up to our knees
Needless to say I want you for me so much that it becomes a need
Same with you I hope one day you need me too the point where when I’m in your presence
It’s like you can finally breath.

The more that I have I want give it all away,
Is there people here who can make me smile forreal?
I tried smoking I tried drinking my tears..
What's life without an exit even if death is covered in leaving these ears.

I didn’t notice I wasn’t focus my eyes were closed to your secrets and potions
But don’t think I didn’t care
And I’m seeing clear

I can't do this alone  the God of the heavens I'm in need of your love most will just hate and some will not come I'm here for forever I'll die with the son
A thief in the night my savior for life.

I don’t know what to say anymore
Yeh
I don’t know what to...
Found my heart right up on the floor
Yeh
I don’t know what to...
It’s like I’m trying but can’t no more..
I’m tired of trying to make you see
I’m tired trying to make me believe
Just say it man so we can both be free
Say it loud so we can both be me
I don’t know what to...
Broken thoughts and insecurities
Say it so we can move this weight
I know you don’t care like you say you do
And here I am waiting for honesty
It seem like that’s to much for you
I don’t know what to say anymore.
I’ll krrp my heart right there on the floor
And if u chose to walk away
Then we both do I’ll keep my heartrightvthere for some reason you want to keep my love today
Cause God knows after you I’m not Gunna care to stay

Hanging on by faith so what's holding me?
I'm not numb I just can't carry my feelings.
I'm like a ear with a earphone in it.
The song I hear is "You can do this, your gunna make it."
When I take them out I look up and start walking.
Went in with expectancy left with with expectancy.
I will make it threw this nothing is holding me ...
But I'm hangout with faith soon nothing will go tell something and most will say well he's got something why is he still driving because there's a day where everything will try to be with me it will get jealous at me and faiths love you see then there will be anything trying to hold my hand but let them speak all of them will walk with me one day but at the end it will be faith that will lead that's been leading me .

I waited for you today but you didn’t show
I needed you today but I walked alone
And now I feel the cold
Dancing on my skin
i notice that my home not a home
And my mother the one I cannot clone is against me
My father  that takes the side of his own feelings has wounded me
What if I do leave like you wish I wonder would check on me ?
Would come for me if I didn’t come back ?
Would I worry if. You don’t call ?
Idk

They point the finger to the man who had it altogether
They kicked him when he was trying to get together
I use to reach for hands that woudl save me but it’s the stranger who critics my life that has best voice in my head.

Like a petal that is pink, showing my colors today
Did you care when I was green and I was growing to place
Yes my roots is with me look at the mess that I made
In the dirt yes I grew, in this dirt I became.
Do you believe me when I tell you I don’t like to be shady
That don’t give me any type growth

Can a Capricorn show mercy
Can a cancer show strength
Can a Capricorn man fall in love and find joy threw the trip?
Can a cancer man understand that his thoughts do  shift.. and when they do will he put his anchor and Capricorn ship?
These are questions to the reader but there’s life to these words,
I’m finding out just how challenging it is to sense both of these horoscopes want thee same thing but never see the balance in it.
But do I give up does he let go and switch?
No he calms my waters by just knowing the difference,
Me knowing how far I can take him and how far I can make him slip, by his own doing one day I know he will fall in my arms once he know the the sea has bottom to so he won’t think it’s to deep

People say I changed
They don’t know the pain
I needed you the moment I came your way
I called from the roof tops covered in vain.
I use to drive by my ex just to feel the pain
My tears were the only thing that made me leave this place.


Far from the pain,
You can say I changed
When he called I came
Because I know the shame.
He came in the moment when I needed a flame
He waited on the roof top to pick my brain
He was tired but came anyway
And now you’re ready to receive your only son but I'm miles away

You shouldn’t wait,
Dad...it’s ok

With lips like these
You became a need
If I hit my knees
Would you pray with me?
If I dive to deep
Would you rescue me?
I let my mind just bleed
I let my heart just scream
Don’t be scared of me
Don’t be afraid of me

I fell in love with a Dragon last night
And she was sweet,
My mind can't think in this state
So I dream.
I tried to hide the lies now I can't sleep..
Don't waist your time I just want what I can't be.

Sweet divine with a heavy truth
One to love and one to lose
I'm not fine.. you feel it to?
My soul is crying my spirit feels you
Forgot how to pray so I turn

Have you ever had that moment of reflect
Like you’re not where you suppose to be but right now your heart beats the best?
I cheated I lied before I had *** with a complete stranger yes I’m talking about myself come in at night and hold my bed tears fall for not having no one except myself now that I do it’s more convenient to do what I don’t know I’m not  incompetent big words but trust me I’m short like a cake on a plate at least I got my slice and I’m not in that bed will I be happy with myself?

It wasn't up in my plans,
To hurt you.
Lately my life have been so spiritual
Trying to defeat or give thought to
Just did now what ima do
What do I look like to you?
The people I wanna hang out with have a lot to do or just don't want to
So I'm picking from a forbidden fruit
The age of a man can't tell if you like his heart or his friends see it wasn't up in my plans to write all if this as a demand but I'm sleepy forgive me it wasn't up in my plans

I need some therapy woah
I need some clarity woah
I need some therapy woah
Ice me down
Ice me down
Ice me down
Liquored out
Liquored out
Liquored out !
In the clouds
In the clouds !
I need some therapy woah !

play in sky

There I go again yeah I blew it everything I don't wanna do I keep doing steadily feeling stupid instead of making excuses I just need to face the music I need ya..
I lean on my own strength but it's useless cause healing only comes by those strips and thoughs bruises
I chunk dueces but sometimes I turn right back to it
Why do I abuse all the grace that you given me it's like I can't win man I still got sin in me ...
We're not same man I really thank him that we're not the same

I tried to hold the light Deep within the chambers of my Spirit
I have tasted the joy of a Dear Savior
His blood on my hands were wiped by his grace  
His tears were on my shoulder
And his friendship was royalty.
I asked him why do you come down to see me there's many in this world and he will always told me i" am"
he had a peaceful  pause ..
As my fate was sealed
And my name was dirt
My hands shook
And my mouth open with hyme
And said :

Don't you see what I'm doing ! Do you see what there doing ? We are ***** my friend oh so ***** I'm nasty oh so nasty!

I'm breaking and I'm not lonely
I took your son and made him my something
We do things that are nothing
Temporary nothings all around me
Signs of the times
I say all the time taking my time gets harder sometimes.

I gotta catch myself
I'm falling right threw hands
Is there a way to come back and will even have the strength as I start backing up his eyes oh his eyes felt they were whispering things to me.
Will you be waiting..

Youre the best I ever had,
In a room full of cash
Compare to you it’s  scrap.

The closet is open,
Im cleaning it out .
The waves of a problem... I'm tossing.

My heart isn't broken,
I just stitched my mouth
I'm tired of believing.. I'm exausted.

Causing  commotion,
I see I'm left out
Where am I driving...oh I'm trying.
I'm trying..
Who's driving?