i have 10 fingers
to pick flowers with
to pet dogs with
to grasp other fingers with

i have 10 toes
to curl into the sand with
to feel the soft grass with
to carry me home with

i have 2 eyes
to see the world with
to watch birds fly with
to sometimes cry with

i have 2 ears
to listen to music with
to hear my friends laugh with
to spy through doors with

i have 1 stomach
to laugh with
to fill desserts with
to one day grow life with

i have 1 heart
to spread air with
to exercise with
to love with

some people you can’t say no to
they beg to see the parts of you
the parts that you had hidden away
and you give in
show them you are not who they thought
and then they are gone
because
all the people you can’t say no to
know how say goodbye so much faster

My body is a temple
Destroyed
Crumbling
Broken
Worshiping inner demons and external pleasures
The pursuit of glory through the forbidden fruit
A blood sacrifice is demanded
By a god at the altar
But there is nothing holy about this
The only heaven I will ever find
Is in beaded red lines
I confess my sins to thee
But there are no answers to my prayers
There is no one to answer to
Higher powers have forgotten me
I have forsaken me
And there is no grace in pain
No forgiveness in punishment
And no God to blame for my sins
As I kneel adorned with my own crown of thorns
Constructed from my own deceptions and faults
I wonder why the only person willing to die for my sins
Is me

People tell me life moves on
But everything is in
s
  l
    o
       w
m
  o
    t
      i
        o
          n
Time barely moves
I'm stuck standing still

People tell me I'm overreacting
But everything feels
s
  o
h
  e
    a
      v
        y
I barely move
I'm stuck carrying it all

People tell me to choose my mood
But everying is so
o
  u
      t
o
  f
c
  o
    n
       t
         r
           o
             l
Everyone stays still
And I'm stuck
I'll never move on

I am many things
Tired
Numb
Sad
Lonely
But most importantly
I am me
And that's all I ever have to be

I am trying
To see the bright side
But that's hard
Because although I am happy now
I am terrified
That I never will be again

Today I went to a party
I was looking forward to seeing you there
But you weren’t there
I wish you knew how much I miss you
How much I want to be with you
How much I love you
But I don’t think I can put into words
What you mean to me
No matter how hard I try