Why is it I only realize now what a Weapon God gave me?

Maybe I have been complaining too much and have been listening

God gave me a weapon and Satan has blinded from seeing it

Every day when I wake up

I know Satan's just ready to try to put a veil over my eyes

A veil made of false truths and lies

It's made of hopelessness and depression

But all I need to do is call on my God for him to rip it off

I have Jesus on my side for this intersession

Prayer is a powerful weapon God gave us

I just wish that I learned how to use it better when I was younger

Maybe then there wouldn't have been such a fuss

Every day I go to war with demons and my evil desires

But when I call on Christ he is my defense

When I pour out myself to him

He as there at whim

I love you Father

Son

And Holy Spirit

I've never been good at an intro

So just let me cut to the chase of what many of you have been through

Addiction

Shame

Guilt

Depression

Anxiety

Losing loved ones

All I can say is that my heart breaks

All around me all I see is pain

But I also see healing that you can't contain

I see broken homes

Broken families that seemed alone

I cry out to you who feel this pain

I know you're at your lowest

I know where you're at

I remember losing the fight but then Jesus came up to bat

You thought you could win on your own

I know now Satan's trying to break my hunger

My hunger for Jesus seems to be dying

But I see now that I'm just inches from winning

What ever it is

What ever the pain

Never let suicide be the way out

Don't pull that trigger!!!

I've had my highs and my lows

My Joy and my Tears

But whatever the pain is I beg of you

Follow Jesus

Because only he

Can Beat it

Broken homes

Broken hearts

Broken dreams

All the trials

Pour out into piles

When I try to grow closer to God it's always two steps forward and one back

It creates more demons I have to attack

All this pain

All this sorrow

It breaks my heart

All of these broken pieces form a ground

That breeds Warriors

Warriors that are strong and determined

Warriors who won't back down

Warriors who are willing to give up everything they are

Warriors who are full of love, mercy, compassion

Warriors who have a righteous anger contained and at bay

Warriors who fight the greatest battles......

Humble on their knees

My heart is clenched
Like a fist

It felt broken

But what was once broken

Has now been healed