If only I didn't look at your eyes; It would have been easy.
If only I didn't bask in your warmth; It would have been easy.
If only the heart didn't whisper your name; It would have been easy.
If only I didn't love you too; It would have been easy.

You look fine to them,
a delight,
but
how long do you have to wear a mask in front of them.

Lonely leaf,
Swings the pain away.
Dancing with the wind and rain.

She's hurt and she cries
But you cant see the depression in her eyes
Because she simply smiles.

Someone's screaming, can't you hear it?
Someone's  aching, can't you feel it?
Someone's  drowning, can't  you see it?
Selfish mongrel help,
Help yourself.

When you love someone, you also give them the power to hurt you.

When I die tonight, the moon will be my guide, the stars will be my wake,
Rest assured I’m in safe hands so don’t worry about me anymore.

It’s not that I hate it,
I just wanna feel less devastated.

Vices are just outlets,
Tears are regrets,
Silence is an answer,
Dying was an option,
Anxiety is the bullet,
Depression is the trigger,
Death was the antidote.

Slept again last night with a heavy heart, and it felt normal-ish

An, the sadness of loss aches again;

Do you even find yourself, do you even try?
Can even figure it out that you lost every pieces of you?
Stop fooling around, stop saying you lost you instead start finding the way out of the abyss.

I lied, not by mistake
I lied so you can be happy;

I’d never love beyond my limits, And here you are dragging me out.

After all the things you've done,
I really tried, I really do Just to understand you.
But it's the heartache that doesn't go away

If I can only muster the words, the guts to tell you.
If I can say it easily without being cowardice with those velvet eyes.
You see I’m a man of my words but I also get tongue tied.
So please be kind and tell me how you feel about me cause it’s making me nuts.
Some, will you just say it. Just be you. Tell her what you feel.
But you see when things get hard, I always ******* ***** things leaving me blank.
I’m just afraid.
Afraid of rejection,
And telling you how I feel is just an option.
Look at me a coward, simple words but I can’t tell you,
I maybe be a coward will not tell you how I feel but deep inside I’m The Who cares loves  you more than you know.
prayed for you when someone else wouldn’t.
I’m afraid.
Afraid that I’ll be a burden, a person that will not give what you want, be what you want.
But I promise you even if this love is unrequited I’ll still care cherish you the most and be the man you’ll run even if it’s against the world.

Why can't I find the right words to express this mind breaking feeling.

My sweet serendipity;

Yung feeling na andito naman sila para sayo, pero hindi mo padin maramdam.

I thought the pain was no more, but seeing you made me unsure.

Nothing seems to matter anymore,

Love is not a test,
Then why cheat?

It’s not about always taking the risk, it’s about how both parties endure it.

Loved so many ways,
Revolted a couple of times,
Cried more than I know,
And
Forgive in many different ways.