My heart dropped
The moment I saw you
Slouched over
Not wearing the smile you make

I knew I couldn’t, shouldn’t, wouldn’t
But I came to help anyway
I’m thankful I was helpful
Even though I’m sorry I intruded

I felt happy
Talking to you
Feeling the world spin around
Pressing my finger against yours

I’m going to be careful, considerate
But I’m still here when you need me
Always gonna be
Promise

I watched you smile
Lighting up at my stupid jokes
Feeling the connection broaden
And to make the distance diminish
I didn’t care what it meant
I won’t worry what it’ll do
Right now I’m dancing in your vision
Are you dancing too

I say I’m okay
Not to worry her
She has enough on her plate
And I’m not struggling

What I haven’t said
Is when I started to be okay
How the endless conversations
Made me feel peace again

So I bury and treasure
But I offer my whole heart
Not to be pointless
It’s what I’m made to do

My heart yearned for you
Desperately tugging at my chest
Now it sits content
Soothed by your words

I offer everything
Take everything you want
Every piece you take
Will make me more whole

You told me
Keep going
You swore
It’d get easier

I’ll move on
I need time
Give it a month
The lack of contact will break it

But we’re back again
And it’s the exact same
I feel the exact same
I want the exact same

Tell me I’ll change
I don’t believe it
I don’t want to
I like being here

No matter how many first chairs I make
Or hours I spend with friends
I won’t be truly happy
I can’t when all I want is our happiness