I am falling
             falling
                  falling
                  
Falling out of touch
     Falling into my bed
          Falling in my mind
               Falling out of style
                    Falling into your arms
                         Falling in love

Hiding from myself
Because I am a monster
Hiding from defeat
Because I am a failure
Hiding from friends
Because I am a waste
Hiding from you
Because I am in love

Though I walk through life
I feel like its a run
Time is flying past
Like a bullet from a gun
People coming in and out
With the rising of the sun
I am getting so much older
Soon I'll be more than a son
But all I really care about
Is me being your ***

I give you my heart
You give me it broken
I give you my love
You give me the shoulder
I give you my time
You give me the leftovers
I give you my money
You give me a dime
I give you my pride
You give me it defeated
I give you my key
You give me your walls
I gave you everything
You gave nothing at all

Lonelyness is here to stay
It fallows me around all day
It's like a cloud about my head
Making me wish I was dead
I just want to curl up and cry
Because my friends won't let me die
Even with those friends I am alone
Because in the end they all go home
Then once again lonelyness is my company
It doesn't go easy or have any sympathy
Just breaks your heart and will to live
Weeds out the weak like a sive
It follows me around all day
This lonelyness is here to stay

Being near to you
Is all I want to do
To stay by your side
I'd give all my pride
Just to hold you hand
I'd count the grains of sand
To touch your lips with mine
Oh it would be devine
Just to know you care
I'd shave all my hair
To have you feel my love
I'd catch a thousand doves
Just to hear your voice
I'd give up all my choice
To put my head on yours
Oh better than a hundred years
All I want to do
Is be near to you

The truth of love is this
We think we need someone
To fill a hole in our heart
But in reality there is no hole
In fact we are fully whole
We do not need someone else
Just to understand that we
We are whole and perfect
Just the way we are
And when two people understand
That they don't need someone else
Is when they are able to fully enjoy
The gift of being with each other

I'm followed by these thoughts
Of what could have been
If I was a better man
A man who had a plan
I just float through life
Like a ship apon a wave
If only I was better
Maybe we could have been

When I see you face
I fall in love all over
Want to kiss your face
I will never be over

How could I forget you
Your my first and only
I'd be lonely without you
I want to be with you only

We might just be friends
But that can't stop me hoping
That we ended up more than friends
So I will keep on hoping

And I will keep on falling in love again
And again and again and again

You may not know it
But I am a poet
I take my time
To write a rhyme
When I feel it
I will write it
If it helped your pain
You would do the same

Crying in my bed
Wishing I was dead
All because of you
This is nothing new

I just want your love
But you are far above
Anything I deserve
How did I get up the nerve

You want to be friends
But my love it never ends
So my heart goes on in pain
I think I might go insane

So I'll just sit in my bed
Hoping I end up dead

This hope of love is killing me
The type of hope that never ends
Thia hope of being more than friends

Even on your worst day
You deserve far more
Than all of the love
This world could ever hold

No matter what happens
You deserve my love
Even if it's a sliver
Of what should deserve

But at this moment
You know not one ounce
Of the love beyond compre
That you should know so well

So if I could show you
The smallest bit of it
It would make me happy
I would feel compete

No matter what you say
No matter what you do
By your side I'll stay
And lay right next to you

I will do my best
To help you make it through
Then I will help you with the rest
For you need to know what is true

And what I know is true
Is that I love you

I don't think you know
Know how much I love
Love you so so much
Much more than I should
Should let my self love you
You are so captivating
Captivating my heart
Heart that beats for you
You alone now and always
Always I will love you
You can need know how much
Much more than words can say
Say... Do you love me too?

Just let me be alone
I don't need you now
Ready to be on my own
I don't want you now

Just let me be myself
I don't need you now
Ready to decide myself
I don't want you now

Please just let me be
I don't need you, you see

I can not help myself
Being next to you
I feel beside myself
Because my love for you

You can never understand
The fullness of my love
But me, I can understand
That you don't want my love

You don't care about the pain
The pain of unreciprocated love
My cuts are for you, I feel the pain
I don't care about the pain I just care about your love

Your lips are red
Your eyes are blue
I would be dead
If it weren't for you

My love for you
It overflows
But that's nothing new
Everyone already knows

They always ask
They always guess
You wear a mask
We are a mess

They ask if we are in love
You tell them no
But we fit like a glove
You won't let it be so

I know you love me
You said it yourself
I guess you are afraid to be
Be true to yourself

All I have for you is love
All I want from you is love

You're the reason for my cuts
You're the reason for my pain
I should hate your guts
But I love you all the same

Ignorant of the pain you make
Because you made my heart awake
Yes you caused my heart to ache
But you caused my heart to brake

I am lonely
But never alone
I have this thing
That always will follow
They call it depression
I call it a monster
It comes in the night
Out is the shadows
Don't know when
When it will strike

I have a hope
Her name is love
I know her well
She knows me not
Yet she's my hope
For me to meet love
Is my one ambition
My deepest desire
Yes I have a hope
And her name is love

I do not write for them
I write for myself
Not to pour out to them
But to express myself
Not to bring joy to them
But to cope with myself
My poems are not for them
My poems are for myself

You are my sunshine
Dear you are my hope
You make my world shine
Make me put down the rope

I want you to know
The extent of my love
I'm hit with Cupid's bow
For you are a dove

So innocent an pure
Majestic and beautiful
I can't even be sure
If you're not an angel for sure

I have a confession
I don't mind depression
It helped me make friends
But what if it ends
Would they ever stay
Even for one day
Maybe they would
No reason they should
I am worthless
Couldn't be less
My pain is unbearable
Chains so unwearable
My mind is my prison
By my own decision
Locked myself inside
Don't let me outside
I will destroy you
Though I don't mean to
My issues are contagious
Loving me is outrageous
So do yourself a favor
And make yourself a hater
Throw away the key
Before you can see
The monster that is hidden
I horse never to be ridden
Please just keep me caged
Never to be engaged

First you say yes
Then you say no
Confused i guess
You just don't know

you confuse me too
Giving mixed signals
Im not a number two
I want clear signals

But when you don't
I listen to my heart
Even if you don't
Or don't have the heart

I wished that you loved me
You show me you do
But we are just friends you tell me
Yet we do more than friends do

Everyone thinks that we are
So why not make it true
Decided who we are
I will always be true

The decition is yours
You know my stance
My heart is yours
So what is your stance

Love is more than a feeling
It is more than an attraction
Love is seeing someone's flaws
It is seeing but ignoring
Love is wanting to never be apart
It is wanting what is best for them
Love is always a selfless act
It is always true and right
People try and distort it
But love stays the same

The joy of the sea
The calmness of the sky
The beauty of a flower
The feeling of a breeze
All pale next to you

The sun will rise
The moon will fall
Like the sun we will rise
Like the moon we will fall
But in-between is where life lives
Yes in-between is where love is

My love for you
It has not left
It waits for you
Or what is left

My heart is shattered
It is broken
For you I'm shattered
For you I'm broken

I don't blame you
I just wanted your love
I just wanted you
To give you love

You got up my hopes
But you knocked me down
I still have some hopes
But I they are so down

You broke my heart
And walked away
I taped my heart
And died away

It was over text
Not even to my face
When I read that text
Tears stream down my face

You don't even know
The extent of the pain
I don't want you to know
I would leave you in pain

I still love you
Nothing will change the fact
My heart is here for you
That my dear is fact

My mind is an enemy
One I can't defeat
I will be the end of me
Put me down six feet

I try to fight it
But it gets stronger
With every hit
I can't fight much longer

I need some help
To defeat my mind
When the thoughts develop
Friends who will get behind

I wish you could know
How much you broke my heart
How much you hurt me so
When you wished to be apart

I could not help but cry
It make my fears come true
I would rather die
Than to be apart from you

My future is not clear
Its far beyond my sight
As long as you are near
I know I'll be alright

I know you'll never care
But when I see you there
I can not help but stare
You have me in your snare

I want to be myself
To make my own decisions
To find joy itself
I want to fulfill my visions

But you hold me back
You say it's for my good
But it feels like a smack
You took away my childhood

What else can you want
My life is my own now
So you can stop your taunt
I don't listen anyhow

I do what makes you mad
I do it for the spite
I hope it makes you sad
I want you from my sight

You think I am so naive
To think that you love me
To believe the lie you weave
I'm not blind I can see

Oh how much I wish
Wish you knew
How much I want
Want only you

I hate myself
This much is true
But I like myself
When I'm with you

My heart is yours if you want
It always is and it shall be
Till the day you end your hunt
And return my heart to me

I wish to be by your side
Your love and warmth my company
In your arms I want to hide
I seek your love not your sympathy

I was born to wander
Born to roam
To seek and ponder
Seek a home

Though we search far and wide
To discover who we are
The truth we seek is deep inside
There's no need to wander far

Lonely by choice
To help others
They should rejoice
We aren't brothers

I push away
To be kind
They can't stay
They will find

I would allow
For their good
This I vow
To get rid

Please give up
Just let up

I hurt those around me
No matter who they are
Why can't they just see
I will leave them with a scar

They have done nothing
But I will cut them
Why are they helping
They know the outcome

I could never hate you
I just hate myself
There is nothing you do
So don't blame yourself

It's better to leave me
Leave me alone to die
Help yourself and flee
Don't even say goodbye

Love is a lie
You can obtain it
But it will leave you dry
Better to quit

Why even try
It's hard to admit
Love will leave you to die
Head held back throat slit

Poetry is music
Music for your heart
When a heart is sick
Is when it will start

It flows from the soul
From each and every part
It works to fill the hole
The hole in your heart

Joy is not a person
Joy is not a feeling
It is a decision
It is what keeps us living

I don't know what to say
The words just won't come to mind
To make you know I feel this way
I know that you would be so kind

I just want to tell you how I feel
To let you know your not alone
Make you believe this love is real
I want to be the one you call your own

I know that you have flaws
But mine at just as bad as yours
They are no reason to give us pause
Together we will find our cures

I promise not to hurt you
I know that others have
My heart will always be true
It will not be split in half

I can not hide it any longer
My fear is strong
But love is stronger
I have waited far to long

Consider this my declaration
That you are my one fixation

I am all alone
In this world I call my own
I have friends around
But nowhere to be found
I could wait all day
There is nothing they would say
To make me feel them near
Nothing I could hear
For I am all alone
In a world I called my home

I could be your sunshine
I could make your day
If only you were mine
If only you were bae

I would give you anything
I would spend it all
If you were my everything
If you were my doll

I could make you happy
I could be your joy
If only I could be sappy
If only I was your boy