If only I could help
If only I knew how
When I hear you yelp
When you need me now

I only make things worse
I only make you cry
Makes me want to curse
Makes me want to die

My heart wants you to know
My heart can't say away
But you'll just say no
But you'll just say nay

Yet you lure me in
Yet you make me feel
My love for you will win
My heart will make me kneel

If only I could tell
If only you'd say yes
Never say fairwell
Never let me stress

But it can not be
But you'll never see

I want to be with you
And tell you what is true

Beauty in and out
Yet you're filled with doubt

To be there by your side
My words to be your guide

Make you understand
To show you first-hand

The joy you bring to all
We are all your thrall

But you mean to me
My only source of glee

If only you could know
I wonder would you sow

For all that you would reap
would be always yours to keep

I am always here
Always by  your side
Willing to lend an ear
Staying for the ride

I will never leave you
I am broken just as much
There is nothing you could do
To release you from my clutch

If you ever need me
My heart is here for you
Set your problems free
I will help you through

They say that I can
I know that I can't
I am a madman
They can just recant

I would if I could
For them and for me
I know that I should
For it is their plea

But I am not capable
It is not escapable

Joy is but a vapor
Little more than wind
We feel it for a moment

I can feel it taper
As life goes to it's end
Stopping it's bestowment

Joy is but a vapor

I walk the world alone
But not without a fight
I have friends to call my own
But none within my sight

All doing their best
But it never is enough
All say they are not like the rest
But my problems are too tough

I can play pretend
But the truth to me is know
I am always in the end
But a man alone

She is but a dream
A figment of my imagination
A wisp in the air

If I could make a scheme
To start a relation
To be the perfect pair

But she is a daydream
An extreme temptation
An individual so fair

She is cute and amazing
But she doesn't even know it
I can't stop myself from gazing
A passion inside me lit

She says she is fat
But it is in her mind
I want to tell her that
A few words to remind

She makes me feel alive
But it could never be
I am too afraid to strive
A large weakness of me

She could never love this individual
But in my dreams she does
I have flaws so visible
A cures of mine it is

If only she could see
How much she means to me

People all around
Yet I feel alone
Having a breakdown
Sitting on my phone

No matter how much I talk
I can never feel them close
Almost as if to mock
To remind me of my woes

Always ever near
Yet still they feel so far
I can see them clear
Yet it feels bazaar

If only they were here
By my side to stay
Willing to hear
All that I have to say

Beat me like a rug
Snap my heart in two
Squish me like a bug
But I will still love you

My feelings will not change
You control my mood
There is nothing I would exchange
Just your touch makes me feel good

The more you hurt me
My heart heart will fall
I wish you could see
All the times I bawl

To be with you is all I want
You are always on my mind
I was so blunt
And you were so kind

But then you made a choice
To not be more than friends
I try to be so nice
But to what ends

I will never be enough
My problems are too much
I will always be gruff
It will always be such

Oh that great expanse
The ever present sky
Clouds upon it dance
In in it birds do fly

To gaze up at the stars
It is a dream of mine
Have it all be ours
Me and my devine

If only I could find
That one and only star
Who just won't leave my mind
I am searching wide and far

But I am but a fool
Forever I am marred
Oh this life is cruel
For it has left me scarred

No one would ever take me
Or even give a care
Forever alone to be
It's something I must bare

To live to die
To laugh to cry
To wonder why

It is a choice for all of us
To fight our fate or just to fuss
With others this must we discuss

Do not blame yourself
It never was your fault
Just put it on the shelf
Or lock it in a vault

Throw away the key
Don't let it haunt your thought
Because soon you may see
That it was all for naught

It only makes things worse
To blame yourself for things
It is but just a curse
Tied down by all those strings

To walk the world alone
Is something none should bare
Find someone to call your own
That someone who will care

Walk the road together
Matching every stride
Through whatever weather
Always side by side

When you fall or falter
They will pick you up
Take you by the collar
And lift you from that dump

A friend to walk the world
Makes any life worth living
Even if it's gnarled
It will be forgiving

Your words are like silk
No matter what they are
Softer than a quilt
Could heal any scar

Your smile is a lantern
In my darkest night
In my mind you burn
All that's in my sight

Your presence is a gift
It makes my day much better
Without I feel a rift
To you I am a debter

Your eyes are like jewels
Priceless beyond compare
I would break all the rules
So into them I'd stare

Your lips are like a rose
I can't resist the lure
Oh the way it glows
Something oh so pure

Life is but a rhythm
Watch it ebb and flow
Let it fill your vision
See how far you go

But don't forget your friends
Without them you are lost
The journey never ends
And all the bridges crossed

So keep on living life
You will find a way
You will beat the strife
And see another day

Oh the joys of sleep
So close to death
But not as deep
It is better than ****

Sleep is a release
To leave this world behind
A world of my own at ease
Escaping into my mind

To live the life I dream
Leave behind my problems
Unhinged by the seam
Hopes growing from there stems

To live a life of crime
How exciting would it be
Wouldn't it be devine
To truly see

This life of boredom
It makes me want to cry
I know this goes against wisdom
But I would rather die

To continue this life
It would make me suffer
More than a knife
Oh how much better

A life of crime would be
The joy of freedom
Having me be me
But alas I'm stuck with boredom

Time is but a thought
It is but a figment
But can not be bought
If only it could be sent

I would trade it all away
To be more than friends
I know you don't feel that way
If I could only make amends

But life goes on and on
Yet my heart stays here for you
I will cry when you are gone
If only you knew

Why must I feel so low
You make my day grow bright
Always make me glow
Whenever you're in my sight

I know it will never be
I have to let it rest
If only you could see
Being together would be for the best

Life without control
Is like a flag without a pole
It has no reason why
Is it better just to die?

Sorry I made you cry
It's hard to say goodbye
It is for the best
I will leave you to the rest

Sitting in my chair,
Fingers through my hair,
Blinding flash of light,
Gave up without a fight,
Doomed from the start,
My atoms torn apart,
Earth and sky divide,
All because our pride.