Love left my life
So long ago
We had some strife
And she let go

I want her back
But I'm messed up
so much I lack
An empty cup

She couldn't care
For I am weak
Don't think I dare
For her seek

I'll live without her
But it will hurt
With what we were
When we would flirt

I see you in my darkest night
When I want to cut me with a knife
You let me know that it's alright
That I have purpose for living life

But you don't know the pain I'm in
Seeing you and knowing the truth
That things won't be like they've been
For I have loved and lost my youth

I feel my mind spinning
Like wheels on a car
Always ever moving
But staying where they are

Sometimes I wonder
If love is real
I can not feel it
They say it's there
Maybe I'm numb
From all of the pain
Maybe it's there
But I'll never feel it
I wish I could know
Unconditional love
But who even knows
If it's even real

Nobody wants love
They want a feeling
They want a person
They want an object
Nobody wants love
Love is not a feeling
Love is not a person
Love is not an object
Nobody wants love
Love is giving away
Love is caring deeply
Love is being afraid
Nobody wants love
Giving away your heart
Caring more about them
Afraid of losing them
Nobody wants love

I can only try
To become better
I can only try
To get over you
I can only try
To be worthy
I can only try
To believe in me
I can only try
To forgive myself
I can only try
To care for me
I can only try
To love myself
I can only try

You are a human
That's why I care
That's why l love
That's why I help
That's why I believe
That's why I trust
That's why I value
Because you are human

I deserve to die
With every breath I take
I deserve to die
For every word I say
I deserve to die
With every thought I make
I deserve to die
For all I that I take

No one could ever love
The person who I am
They tell me I should die
And I know that they are right
But I deserve to suffer
To live a life of pain
So I can be punished
For who I have became

I hear her voice inside my head
Playing back the things she's said
I feel her beat inside my heart
She has taken up every part
I see her smile when I close my eyes
I remember and part of me dies
She doesn't love me like I do
That is a fact I know its true
But I still can't get her out of my head
It makes me wish that I was dead

I am sitting here
Only treading water
Not getting any better
But I am building muscle
With every single stroke
So that maybe one day
When life it's me
I can hit life back
And come out on top

Don't mind me I am slowly dying
Don't mind me I am just crying
Don't mind me I am probably lying
Don't mind me I am just longing
Don't mind me I am slowly losing
Don't mind me I am just dying

Nobody would even care
If I slit my throat and died
They would not shed a tear
Maybe they'd even smile
Because I am so awful
That people want me dead
Maybe they are all right

You told me a lie
That you'll always be here
For me when I am down
But in my darkeat moment
You're nowhere to be found

She was
A loveless lover
A heartless heartbreak
A soulless soulmate
A lossless loss
A dreamless dreamer
A wasteless waster
A hopeless hoper

I don't deserve this love you give
I am but worthless flesh and blood
While you are a goddess divine
In your presence I can not live
For I am worse than mud
And you my dear are so fine

I think that we should part
For I can not live up to you
You are leagues above
I will only break your heart
And then you will find someone new
Who will give you so much love

Although it hurts me so much
I know that it is for the best
For me to leave you on your own
I will always miss your touch
But I did not pass the test
So I am meant to be alone

I hope you can understand
That all I care about is you
And none of this is your fault
I am unworthy of your hand
This is something I always knew
That by your love I can not stand

I am sorry it must end this way
But I wish you only happy days

I wish to hold
You oh so tight
And let you know
That it's alright
I'll move your fears
Far from your sight
And if we were
To ever fight
I would be sure
To make it right
So we could hug
In the moonlight

I know I am not good enough
I know I can't be perfect
I know I don't deserve you
I know I will always be average
I know I can't do everything right
But that doesn't mean I will stop trying

It is a lie
That Love exists
Some argue against
They say love is real

Now read it backwards

I see the blue
Of the sky
I see the green
Of the trees
But all I've seen
And caught my eye
Can't compare to you

When I am feeling so alone
I know that you are by my side
Your warm embrace to be my home
In your arms I can always hide
And almost feel like their my own
I then forget I ever cried

Thinking is an dangerous pastime
It can make you extend past time
And make you think of all those times
When you messed up so so many times

I want to cry
Into your arms
To feel your breath
On my neck
To hear your voice
Say it's alright
To feel your lips
So close to mine
And then I know
I'll be just fine

This love I feel
For you is real
Yet this all
Feels surreal

I can't believe
You chose me
It's like this all
Just can not be

I say that I'm alright
Even when I'm not
Because I feel so tight
Like I'm tied in a knot

I'm not good enough
I could never be
You deserve someone better
Than I could ever be

All I wish in life
Is to be good enough
To have you as my wife
But loving me is so tough
So I cut myself with a knife
Because I have too much stuff

I know it is my fault
I know I made you cry
Just lock me in a vault
All alone for me to die

Heart break
Headache
Mistake
Self hate

My head is spinning
You keep it going
With all these signs
All of these times
That we go out
I listen to you pout
Yet you keep on saying
We will never be a thing
You said you have never
Been on a single date ever
Then what were those things
Those meetings with meanings
People call those things dates
I guess you have higher rates
First you said you loved me
Then you went and confused me
You said we should be just friends
But the signals you give never ends
Then you said you weren't into guys
And then you gave your reasons why
Now you say you will never date
I don't know what is next at this rate

My heart it beats
Beats like a drum
Beats for that someone
Haven't found them yet
Eventually one day I will
And give them all
This love I have inside
My beating heart

I think I like you
But I'm not sure
I know I love you
I am pretty sure

I think you like me
But I'm not sure
I know you love me
I am pretty sure

I think we like each other
But I'm not sure
I know we love each other
I am pretty sure

I have sadness on the inside
But joy on the outside
I like to hide my feelings
But they always show their face
I wonder if I could feel
What it would be like
To be happy even just one time

I cry tears of words
Words with rithym
Words with rhyme
Words that feel
Words that show
Show how I feel

Love is hate
The hate of being alone
The hate of being apart
The hate of seeing them hurt
The hate of seeing them go
The hate of hearing their crys
The hate of hearing their pain
The hate of leaving someone
The hate of leaving forever

I want to help you
But you don't want my help
You just want to live
In all of your pain
I can understand that
But you would never know
Because you'll never talk

I can't help but feel
My opinion doesn't matter
Though they say it does
I never get my way
Even if they ask me
I guess I just don't matter
Or at least what I say

A poet is an artist
Doesn't matter their name
Their story is the same
They went through so much pain
It almost left them lame
So they must explain
All of their pain

I thank the pain
For making me
The man I am
It gives me reason
To write the rhymes
That help so much
To stop this heart
From aching so much

You are a scar on my heart
A wound that'll never heal
Though you might just fade
You will always be here

You are a dream
A dream to me
So unobtainable
Yet so real
I feel you close
But you are not here
You are far away
Inside your mind
With all those thoughts
That make you cry
I wish I could
Go in your mind
And beat those demons
That are inside
So you'll be happy
Then maybe you'll see
That I exist

You are the poem of my heart
The hope that I am living by
I die inside when we're apart
But by your side I can not cry

You are the breath inside my lungs
The air that keeps me alive
You are the food that sustains me
Just you smile can fill me

So matter what you say or do
I will always end up loving you

Why do I have these feelings
That you're the one for me
When I can not have you
You will never love me
I am just not worth your time
Although we are close friends
I am with you through the bad
And with you through the good
I try to make you smile
When you want to cry
I try to talk it through
But you push away
Makes me feel that I
I am the source of your pain
And I that was ever true
I would gladly die for you
So you can live your life
Without the pain I cause
But if it's not the case
I will keep on loveing you
Even if don't in return
Because love can be one-sided
Though it hurts much more
I will go through pain
Because it is you I adore

Every piece of art
Is worth a thousand words
For each and every stroke
Has meaning and took thought
Made with love and care
Priceless beyond compre
You can not place a value
Of thoughts made into art
The feelings that go in
They can not be bought
Words can not express
The thoughts behind the art

These thoughts inside my head
They won't let me go to sleep
Keep my mind on racing
I wish I could make it stop
I try and I try but I am too weak
Funny how my mind is stronger than me
Not funny how it makes me feel
Feeling like I want to die
Feeling like I want to end it all
Making me hate all I am
I am a worthless human
Praying every night I die
Disappointment when I wake up alive
Every night it's getting worse
Don't know how long I can fight
These demons inside my mind

I am feeling lonely
Without you by my side
You make me feel so lovely
When in your arms I hide

I wish I was next to you
Because you are feeling sad
I would tell you what is true
So much joy to be had

I hate you see you cry
It scares me half to death
When you want to die
It takes away my breath

Why do I want to cry
Why do I want to die
Because I want to love
It's all I can think of
Not love of any kind
The love that is blind
Everyone falls away
Each and every day
Just me and my other
We got one another

I hope you know
How much I care
For each and every
One of you
I would gladly die
To save you all
Give my life
So you could live
I would help you
Through anything
Never leave you
For any reason
Because I care
So much about
Every one of you
If you remember
Only just one thing
Remember that

Every time I see it
It makes me smile
Even in my darkness
How can anything
Contain so much
Yet be so little
Just a simple picture
Nothing more
Nothing less
Yet it makes me smile
Puts a wild grin on me
I hope I can know
Know the owner
Of this beautiful piece

Tears rolling down my face
Spiraling out of control
Getting sader and sader
Nothing can bring me up
I will always be down
But nobody even cares
Like I actually matter
Maybe one day I will
today is not that day
In truth that day will not come
Because I could never
Never be loved