Cheater

a friend doesn’t let you **** up your life

that girl was not your friend.

I’m sorry to ruin that for you

the solace that you took

at least you got a friend

in the end

that girl that let your throw it away

that saw how miserable you were in the end

that girl was not your friend.

I’m not saying it was her fault

it was yours

I’m merely saying that a friend would have made sure

you would have been okay

that girl was not your friend.

And then you lied to your other friends

said that we were open

i really should not be your friend

I'm such a **** up
I've alienated most my friends
By being too honest
Or needing them too much

you would..
you would call now
telling me how you cant live without me
I used to think that I couldn't live without you
but when you hurt me
like you did
I found out
that I could

How dare you talk to me like that
I'm not your honey
anymore.
How dare you call me
tell me
you realize you did the worst possible thing
and ask for me back
how dare you
say i never loved you
if i don't take you back
I loved you way to much
I owe you nothing
not a ******* word
I spent the night
trying to make sure
you were going to be okay
that you weren't going to die
of your self loathing
I didn't sleep because
i
for some unexplainable reason
still want to help you
but i cant come back to you
we can never be again
nick
i am so sorry
but we just cant

So jon
I had a teacher once
When I had cancer
She told me to think about
What it would do for my writing
I called my ex fiancé
To ask him to send me some things
I asked why he put me through pain
He said
think about what it will do your writing
******* Nick
You never liked my writing
Now I'm heartbroken again
I'm writing a lot
But I just want you to come back
I don't care what
This pain
Will do for
my writing

In a month
Will we be okay
In a month
Will you ******* call
In a month
Will we be sad friends
With misplaced hearts
In a month
Do you start writing poetry again
In a month
Will it be for me
In a month
Will we be strangers
In a month
Will you whisper my name next to crazy
In a month
Will you regret leaving me
Breathing to fast on a floor
In a month
Do you apologize
In a month
If you do do I walk away
In a month
In a month
I'll be back in school
In a month
What exactly do I do
When in a month
I am still in love with you

I'll make a brilliant staving artist
In this much pain
Who ******* wants to eat