I am so grateful
To those who went before me
Signposting the way,
Patiently,
Over and over,
Until I had the grace to listen
And to learn
And to respond.
And now it is my turn
To repay that kindness,
To pass it forward,
And signpost the way to those behind me
With love, patience and kindness.

Slowly
Learning and
Understanding and
Becoming
More confident
More assertive
More bad-***
Till you
Can stand
In your power
And no ******
Can come close
To you
Unless you say so

Once again
Succumbing
To the sleepy seductiveness,
Eyelids drooping,
Breath deepening,
Drifting off
In the arms of Morpheus,
Yet sofa bound,
Til waking in the early hours,
Neck taught,
Limbs frigid,
Dragging leaden feet upstairs
To the comfort of my waiting bed
And dreamless sleep.

Years of ersatz compliments
Absorbed and believed,
Positive compliments ignored
For not aligning with beliefs
Instilled from birth.

Awareness of ego‘s need for
Reassurance and
Validation
No matter how false
As long as feeding insatiable negative self belief.

Yet also curiosity
To know how one is seen.

Yet also a knowing that the body is yet a trifle,
Compliments meaningless
Just flattery and opinion and
Not to be believed.

What’s true? What’s not?
All tangled knots to trip you up.
Or perhaps there’s a ploy afoot
To stop
Unknown feelings arising
In fear of where they may lead.....

Love trumps fear
The end

Everything you do
Everything you say
Everything you feel
Everything that happens to you
Is for you
For your lesson
For your greater good.
Your words create your world
So choose your words and
Your actions
Carefully
And
With
Love
Compassion
And
Respect

How do I break these cords
To my past experiences and bitter memories
That keep raising their ugly heads
That keep me playing small
That keep messing up
a ******* good friendship?

Sleek
Elegant
Independent
Demanding
Appreciated
Adored
Stretched out
Limbs akimbo
Enjoying the warmth
From the midday sun
Purring
Happy
Content

Follow your gut
Trust
For it’s your
Inner compass
Your guide
To the truth
And
Freedom

But first
You need to
Introduce yourself
And listen

Awareness
Understanding
Acceptance
Love
Forgiveness
Release
Let go

Sooner rather than later
For all our sakes