Misery
I am the beast
I am the state of being
I am no longer running from
What have I been getting used to?
Pouring myself down the drain the morning after
I have naught, but I just am.. the insufferable disease
So I painted themes of what my life might be had I never had a

Dream
And it's dead
When the poison gets inside
It might take a lifetime just
To know your lifeboat has slowly drifted away against the tide

I've sewn confusion in the eyes of my lovers laid
To rest another
Just like me
I've given everything I have
Yet there is so much
Locked inside of me
Let me explain
That there is nothing I could explain
That any ordinary being could understand
There's nothing beyond these tombstones
Bereft of the secrets of the stars
And they are not telling any truths to me
Even if they could speak
They are just like me
A mystery
Bright with no personality
Only beautiful in the full moon light

Truth be told
I cannot sleep
Although I wish for peace forever
I am colder now than ever
Still praying for peace
I can be the wind beneath your wings
I can feel so powerful
Yet alone, I don't feel anything

White Willow tree woes
Cylindrical mindset
Continuous flow, woah, wash me away
To darkness
Darken my Evergreen, pine-needle wings
Scavanging for things I know I should not have
They're not always on the surface
Ketamine dreams give me a reason to believe
I can take this gun right out of my mouth
Beat the machine
Run afoul
Be rich
Without a dime around

If I'm appalled
It wont be enough to write
I may be sad
But never sad enough to die
Days like today
I just can't escape my life
Whether justice is or it isn't right
This phone of mine never rings at night
When the bottles empty
I'll be full of love
But it's just for tonight
Tomorrow I
Will be back to where I was

I just need a drink before it's all over
The black
The misery
The trees I've left my own hanging
The people I've beholden to my anger
And the rage always beholden to me
The mist
And the wind
The clouds in the dark sky
The angels that never were
And never will be
I don't need a prayer
Just a drink
So I may disappear
into the black
Back into
My own misery

Frozen oak is a currency I can't claim or Keep
Burning at the altar I
Swear on this cross that you'll burn
Right beside me Be
An anchor for a cause Or
Throw an Anchor just to cause disbelief This
Cloud you're on will descend We will
**** theses ******* off in the end Our
Lords are our hills And
Consciousness is black For
I wait for just a ******* day Too late
To save us both in the end We
Will mash this ******* into dirt Forever
Struggling to express ourselves as long as We
Are still above the water I
Swear that I will never Stop
Fighting to the till the bitter Wounded Creativity
Will mark my end My
Legacy is a tombstone of Words
A shroud cast to keep The ******* Out
The door and into their expressionless lives
Again
No flaws for you
But a death sentence for obedience and Useless Gem