I’ll be ok for a few days but then it hits me, I stop functioning and everything falls apart again….!

Yes, hmm, no wait. How do you define what's fine? I smile, I laugh, I talk and I go out. But then, I also feel that there is something that's eating up my soul from inside. I feel lost, I feel scared, I panic, I go into sadness and I suffer in silence. I'm all this. So now you tell me. Am I fine?

Disappointed
Hurt
Scolded
Insulted
Ignored
I should be used to it now but it ******* hurts....!!

Was being a girl always so tiring n hard or the society made it so tiring.....???

The person who does something that inconveniences them, but does it anyway because it’s important to you. The person that’s always there for you at the end of the day. The person that can’t wait to talk to you and listens to every word you say. The person who no matter the mistakes and the choices you’ve made, wants to be with you. The person who you call at two am and would drive over to hug you and talk to you. The person who wipes away your tears and kisses your tear stained cheeks. The person who would throw everything away, the person who knows and knows what you want without asking— that’s the person. That’s the person that loves you more than life itself. And if you have someone like that, don’t ever let them go.

My definition of toxic is when someone has hurt you so much to the point where you’re tired of it but you still love them so much that you don’t wanna leave and you’re willing to keep getting hurt by the same person hoping they will change but they never change, and you start thinking about bad things about yourself thinking you’re not worth it and you start losing your worth that’s toxic, toxic is when they start abusing you mentally, physically and emotionally, but you don’t care because you wanna keep loving them and make a better person the only reason there like that’s is because they have been hurt before and they think you’re going to hurt them in the same way but you’re not going to, toxic is when they stop putting effort into you, they stop talking to you, they don’t wanna see you, they don’t care about you, they talk to other people behind your back, they’re not loyal, not showing you off, they aren’t just treating you right like you should be treated, but you don’t think of it you just keep running back to them, and both of you guys realize you’re hurting each other but you guys never leave and just keep getting hurt and then hears and years and years come and you’re so hurt that you start having trust issues you have depression, anxiety and so much more, and you just can’t leave the relationship, it’s difficult because you love and care so much about them but sometimes you gotta love yourself before you try loving someone else, caring about yourself before someone else isn’t toxic but letting someone control you and who you are is. Don’t let no body tell you what you can and can’t do. YOU ARE YOUR OWN PERSON you’re not them and you’ll never be like them. You are yourself and if someone don’t like it we’ll they don’t deserve you, it’s crazy how’s person can hurt you so much and effect you and your future but it doesn’t always have to be like that, it’s also crazy how a person can hurt you and not give a **** but no matter what no body’s lives are prefect, we get knocked down lower then we have ever been just so we can climb higher then we ever have, so don’t lose faith in yourself entirely yet, there are so many more people out there, sometimes it’s okay to take a break from the world and relationships to focus on yourself so you can come back better than ever, don’t let these toxic *** friends and people stop you from being happy and getting what you want. So be happy and love yourself like you deserve to be loved….!❤️❤️