I’ll carry it to the grave with me
Unwilling though it is
It’s more a part of me than
My own mind

I will be free
No matter what you say
There is nothing you can do
To stop me

I want a man like you.
lol is it weird I'm in love with fictional characters?
They are what i dream about each night
Come walk, lurking in the shadows, come closer
come closer to me. I like your mysterious heart,
Your complicated ways, i am secretly yours
Come open your heart and soul for me.
Tell me what has hardened them, ill fix it.
Shh be soft for me. I can show you how to love.
I go for the underdogs. The ones who need
LOVE the Most. Because i feel a connection.
I have so much love to give. And i want you.
I want you to have it all. Because people haven't
liked or loved you and i know you are
SECRETLY BEAUTIFUL

Today a girl I knew was shot to death
Today another child died of starvation
Today another baby was aborted
Today a girl became anorexic
Today a boy was beaten by his parents
Today a teen took their life
Tomorrow their will be no violence
Tomorrow their will be no more judging
Tomorrow physical appearance doesn't matter
Tomorrow parents accept their children
Tomorrow...
But tomorrow never comes, it'll always be today.

I was literally so happy today

I personally have never felt wanted
Some people get that luxury
Some people are used to attention
And that's amazing, I'm happy for them
But me, I can honestly say I've never
Felt like people genuinely liked me
And today that changed
Today I felt wanted, liked, and loved

I'm tired of the damage
I'm tired of the sorrow
Let's bring out the happy
Let's do it tomorrow

I'll stop writing about this
Why should I let you see
If it will only make you
Upset to look at poems
Some things I should just
Keep to myself

I'm too flaky
I'm too competitive
I'm too forgiving
I'm too self deprecating
I'm too bent in the past
And too focused on the future
I'm too uncommitted
I'm too scared, worried, nervous
I'm not worth your time
Not with so many "too's"

*******, a word to make me shutter
As my stomach churns like butter
I can move my hips just fine
But top, that is a different side
The only time I'm ******* is in my room
And even then I want to hide
No one should see what's under there
Maybe they don't, but I still care
When I wear bras with wires and hooks
It's all a show, it's just for looks
What's under there is something I despise
I wouldn't want that image in your mind
I have fantasies like everyone else
But I remain with a top on,
So I won't shutter at myself

I want to open up for the first time
And the persons eyes I look into
Are just as in love with me

What you didn't realize is that you left traces of yourself behind

Do you ever trace the grooves in your hand
Or follow the veins under your skin
Do you slightly sway whenever you stand
Or pick at the bumps on your chin

Is there a bone in your body that doesn't quite fit
Is there a pulse that you can never find
And your mouth's filled with glue rather than spit
Can you see the microbes in your eye

Are your teeth slightly crooked whenever you smile
Are your shoulders more wide than your hips
Is your build more of the disproportionate style
And is the skin chewed from off of your lips

Does your hair fall in clumps right on to the floor
Are your fingernails picked to the nub
Do you find concentrating as more of a chore
Can you also not stand tummy chub

Do the grooves in your mind tend to relapse instead
Of helping move on past the dread
And do you find sometimes you can not trust your own self,
Or control the bad thoughts in your head

Life is full of battles
And I keep signing treaties

And every second I trip
And every second I don't land

I haven't turned down a dare
Except for this one,
You're daring me to kiss you
But I won't, I refuse
Time for a truth instead

He's right you know?
You won't make it through college
You'll never be anything
And a ******* for trying
So stop will ya?

A small familiar tug at the mind
And I busy myself quickly
I pretend it's not there.

Twisted everything is twisted
Is there an emotion for happy yet sad
Joyful and depressed?
Because it took too long to get over you
And the butterflies in my stomach are dancing no more
There's no more fall into me or the way my heart soared
Only a hollow shell, once filled with hope
That faded away like fog in the morning
A fog that made it hard to see that I couldn't have you

We could be
something real
Something good
If only you would

Part of me is half awake in this world
Eyes wandering the classrooms and halls
My mind is hardly active in this world
And then, part of me roams my memory
Half of me is off trekking smoky mountains
I'm riding a ski lift up Mt Werner, snow.
It's autumn here in the Smokies, crisp
The leaves are vibrant reds and yellows
And a mountain stream trickles by
My feet go numb in the icy stream,
Here is where I pop off my skis to listen
To the sweet sound of alpine fir trees
Here is feeding the squirrels in Yosemite
And hiking to a water fall, testing my faith
Cramming snow into my mouth,
Followed by hot chocolate at a cabin
Here is Appalachian Summers and picnics
And Rocky Mountain Winters and snow
Or slipping under the turquoise blanket
And exploring underwater caves in Hawaii
Memories are so dear, and always reappear
When everything around me is monotonous
I let myself rediscover what was once mine
And I don't even have to close my eyes
To be part of this beautiful world

Howling with sorrow,
I stood emotionless at the bedside
Unable to lend a comforting hand,
Unable to deny the accusations,
Unable to pretend it wasn't true.

who are you?
are you the little girl I used to hold?
do you remember me?
do you remember yourself?
bright eyed, spirited
you're different Miranda
why can't you remember
*who you are

We find ourselves rooting for the underdog because we see ourselves in them

To slip underneath the churning waves outside
In the dark you can look up and not see the surface
Not see how far down you sink, not see the way out
To be underneath it all, to be tossed by the current
To hit the sandy bottom and stare up and see nothing
In the dark, underneath the water it makes no difference if your eyes are open or closed
To be enveloped
To be embraces
To be taken in
To not breathe

I dreamt of you last night
And thought of you this morning
It's true I like you so
But I'm not ready
I'm afraid I'll never be ready
Maybe one day
My mind will be at ease
And my heart will unlock its doors

I remember when you would search the halls for me
Now you don't.
you look for Him.
Him who your in love with
Him who replaced me.
Not that i loved you that way.
i loved like a sister, and now your gone
I remember today when I smiled seeing you in the hall
You smiled back and started to walk to me
As we got close I got ready to say hi,
but you brushed past me to him.
I normally wait for y'all. but whats the point?
when i do y'all take forever nuzzling,
Then you walk with me, but never look at me,
You're too busy gazing at him.
So i left today, walked away. I hope you noticed
But you didn't.
I miss you, but I'm over that now.
Im over y'all together and me behind.
You're still one of my best friends,
But i feel so.. unimportant.
SOOO peace.

Wrap your arms around each other
And sing, *even when you don't know the words

A 60,000 dollar suicide

I cannot tell you what I do or how I feel anymore
I won't let myself be the root for pain or stress

I refuse to be the antagonist in your story
Better me to be an unmentioned character

I text my mom asking her if I should go in there and tear him apart with words so truthful it'd leave him speechless
And then she says no, and I realize she's right
I'd be too scared of what he'd do to me afterwards.

I have so much to say
But given the opportunity
I'm silent

Some songs will never sound the same

I can never let myself think that way again

*But it's not like I could control it before

And yeah maybe I don't know,
But maybe that's a good thing

'Oh don't worry about him, he met a girl'
Eye twitches. Smile fades. Heart falls.
He Met a girl.
Oh I'm so happy for him I press send
I'm so happy he found someone.
Finally met THAT girl. Whoever she is.
It sure as hell wasn't me
I'm not a ******* option.
You never thought of me,
Who has liked you for months now
You thought of her. Whoever she is.
Well I'm glad you can lie in texts.
Wait, I'm glad you can lie in life.
'Aww you two are great together'
I wish she  was me.
I wish that special person was me.
But it wasn't.
okay, well nite presses send.

I'm trying to hold it together

I was doing so much better
I was way more self confident
And now You had to
******* go there
And say the wig looks prettier
Than me. your own daughter
Laugh at me. Say Its awkward
Say it was a mistake
Say you feel bad for poor me
What do I have to do
To feel ******* pretty
What do I have to ******* do

When your parents are asking about boys and boyfriends
Do you ever wanna just get it over with and scream in their face,
*I AM GAY

And I'll be gone, gone tonight
The ground beneath my feet is open wide
The way that I've been holdin' on too tight
With nothing in between

Worried eyes follow me down the hall
Concerned hearts beat to my own rhythm
Helpful hands gesture towards them
But I'm too scared and guilty to approach
I don't go home to slamming doors
I don't go home to screaming and crying
That's only some nights, very few at that
Yes he is harsh and hatful eyes. Cold
But it's nothing like they think it is
It's nothing

I stopped taking care of myself
And that’s how I know

I'm going to end up killing myself

That's it honestly
I'm not putting myself through it anymore

It hurts so much
I’m losing touch
I hold my breath

It hurts so much

**** this
****
This

I don't understand
I work so ******* hard
I don't understand