He drags me to the ocean and holds me under
watches me as I drown
then drags my lifeless body to the shore
pounds on my chest begging me to breathe
crying for me to open my eyes

Water spews out of my mouth as I gasp for air
I helplessly reach towards him
crying for him
thanking him for saving me
as he drags me back to sea and holds me under

My heart skipped a beat when those words rolled off your tongue
without provocation or temptation
just my smile and squeals
as you held me down, finger tips like feathers
and quickly turned away as my lungs caved in
to those words
and the hope they bear

All you do is give me your smile
And suddenly I'm weak, I can't speak
and my breathing grows hollow
My spine begins to shake, pupils dialate
as I try to form sentences
but they slip off my tounge
and hit the floor
as you walk away

Skin opened like a butterflies wings
through death my soul is released
it's lovely, truly
greyish tone, salmon hues
floating somberly towards you

Yes
reach towards me
touch my hand, trace my thighs
lean forward
and lunge towards my heart
rip it out
and steal the breath in my lungs
then cut the veins
one by one
infront of my teary eyes

Do you remember the summer?
the parties, fireworks and sand hills,
the laughing and screaming the crying and cuddling
your big arms squishing, and lifting and dragging me
splash pads and beaches and forts in your basement
and taxi rides home early because we just couldn’t wait;
the nights we remembered and ones left all hazy;
We used to be happy...

You are the anchor holding a ship down
You are the walls of a house with no exits
You are the roots dug deep in the ground
You are a cage with keys thrown away

But

I am the steering wheel, moving forward
I am the window sill, leaving options
I am the leaves in the wind, moving freely
I am the wings on a bird, breaking free