The blood trickles up my throat
and back down as I swallow it whole
I wipe it clean and pray you won’t ever find me
I’m not as perfect as you think,
I get a little help from my finger wiped clean,
I’ll burn my throat and **** myself
inside then out.
And I just pray you won’t find out
I pray you won’t find out.

I like to pretend the world is mine and everyones in the palm of my hand
Or just in my pocket waiting to be let out.
But the earth revolves around the sun,
Not the moon, not my dreams or hopes or my own self,
No
The world revolves around the sun,
Not caring about anyone on its ****** surface,
Not caring about a single ****** soul.

I’m yours; not his.
He’s been long forgotten since I’ve gazed into your eyes
and had a moment of your time.
Don’t fret my love,
I've sewn our shadows together,
so even when we’ve reached a dark path
when we come out the other end we will still be one.
And I will never leave you,
I will never not try to make you smile.
I love you too much to let you go

You don’t wanna know what goes on in my head on cold winter nights
When everythings wrong and nothing is right;
Even my own mind scares me sometimes.

Just sit and whisper sweet nothings in my ear
I’ll whisper back how long I’ve waited just for this
and I’ll crawl into your warm embrace;
It’s been years since I last dreamed of this.

I take a deep breath in, tasting the cold air on my tongue
feeling it seep down my throat, through my lungs
down to the pit of my gut.
I let it sit, passing deeper within.
I feel the ice go through my skin, pass through vein after vein
reaching every ***** in my body, stopping at the heart.
I give in, exhaling every particle of used up oxygen
finally cleansed of my past.
A breath of fresh air is all it takes
to save me from the thoughts that haunt me.

They warned me, but I’m curious
It’s my tragic flaw
My need to know whats in the minds of those around me
You, you won’t let me in, that’s a first
You say half truths to get by my desire for your knowledge
but I know there’s more behind your wall
I'll get through to you eventually, I promise you I will
I’ll open your heart and mind, search through the memories
take out the bad, and leave you with happier thoughts to get you by
I promise you before I die.