The only time I thought I wanted to let go
Was when you said you had no strength to carry on.
How many times I asked to fight the world
But it was only me you fought.
Not realising we will die without
Your eyes shone bright with joy in pure day light;
But every word you said it broke my dreams
So far away from what my smile seems
To be; its hard not to break down in front of you
And even harder not to cut your veins with truth.
Our farewells never good but rarely bad.
though one ends up healing their broken heart.
What time has done to us we ll never know
But distance for sure won’t be end at all.

i dont need many words to say
how desperately i wanted you to stay.
how i would hold you in my arms until i die
until there s nothing left but ashes in my eyes.
i  told you i would never leave your side
i promised i would learn to get it right
amongst these ugly faces and mad thoughts
i try and find the hope i need the most.
so what s that that you said the other  day
you weren’t ready well neither am i, i say
but i want to be with you every waken second
hold your hand when you re feeling down or lonely or just mad
i want to be there while i can remember how fast you force to beat my silly heart.

You want your freedom
Want your *****
You make my fairytales come loose.
Apologies dont mean a thing to both of us
You re still unfair and I still jeopardise your trust.
I want to be with you see that you care
You only talk, you choose truth never dare.
I want a first dance, want your crying eyes
To shine so bright and be clear like blue skies
When I am in the whitest dress…say yes.
My life is not a fairytale
Of that I’m sure.
But I believed you d make it one
You d make it pure.
I’d fall down to your feet
I’d hug your knees
I’d beg and swear I love you
With such ease.
In love there is no space for pride
I say im sorry and I never hide.
What hurt the most that you don’t understand
how much it hurts and how hard to pretend
To make my peace with what I always feared.
To know what could have been and realise.. I saw- it disappeared.
You made me stronger I have ever been
But now im so weak, and my hope s so thin.
i want to make you feel like i am not forever
eternity seems to be not so long.
i want you to keep what we have
and treasure
what we will have as long as love goes on.

When the last leaf has reached the ground
And sky gets filled with innocent white snow
You ll start to see what you have found
Reveal the love you re desperate to show
The lightning strikes in your bright soul
We chose disguises for us all
To hide away from all the pain
Convince we dont waste life away.

i dont need fancy house or a super cool car

i dont need diamond rings or the stars from the sky.

just your smile, your laugh

will be more than enough.

we re struggling we re fighting

and we hope for the best

noone knows what will happen

we dont know when we ll rest.

as long as we end up being by each others side forever

id keep going through the storm until i cant remember

my name and purpose why i came into this world

and your name will be only word

i know.

i hate to deal with this and that s my curse
a spell that someone s put on my poor heart
right now and for a long time i felt nothing worse
could come.
i see the autumn leaves whirl in the air
some raise higher and higher
and some fall desperately,
touching the ground they flare.
the world around gets duller every day,
it s flooded with hope’s tears
and unaccomplished dares.
the sky is grey the thoughts are dark and thin
i want to walk until my legs give in.
i want to fight until i feel no more
but in the end i know
it s you i ve suffered for.
you re worth every teardrop
that i cry
every smile that i force and smoky heavy sighs.

you know it's been a long time,
since i got burnt so much.
you know i made myself die
oh my, so many times.
i got bruised, beaten and swore
i d never cry again,
but then i met your heart and your eyes
that brought me so mach pain.
i thought i could hold on to what we
've created within months
but that wasn't enough to live but
it was enough to last.
and i would curl up on the floor and
cry until my mind'd go blind and
i would knock on locked doors and gates
but nothing i could find.
the times when i was ready to get
my memories and hope and leave
and follow you to the edge the world
but your glance is so stiff.
you took my hopes not leaving a trace but
i knew it was you and not the place
where i am right now or have ever been
i hope now this will never happen
again.